what's it sound like when yr brain presses against yr skull?

[theknifetheyuse]

i hate not sleeping. except not really, i enjoy the excess amounts of time i have and it's rather pleasing to know that i'll potentially see over three years worth of shit in my time than the average bloke. i feel like a superior being. oh, but it is rather frustrating having to stay in bed for hours so as not to wake the family members up from

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[littledelio]

If it makes you feel any better, I believe a large part of the population is drawn to you in the way that large car accidents attract people. Don't think so hard about it. Yes, *I* at least think hard on weather or not I actually care about people. I think most people feel fake to a certain extent, and those that don't, I envy. I act very nice and polite to people most of the time, but I can't tell whether that is because I just want everyone to love me or if it is genuine empathy. And I usually trust people to an extent, I find I expect people to help me out because I know I would do the same. But then again, maybe it's because I'm manipulative and need everyone to love me...I think I'm rambling, and I'm not sure all of this is 100% true. But at this very instant, it is. I probably have some slight mental problem too, but right now I'm a Bitch. And I always love being a Bitch. Maybe that's why I like you; you act like an ass-hole all the time at school, and I always want to. So I'm living vicariously through you, using you

[theknifetheyuse]

how would that make me feel better? it's like i'm this great big chaotic mess that's potentially very disturbing and gross but people can't stop watching. in which case, i don't really have friends, i have spectators.
i don't really think i'm very fake, though when i am it's usually in a joking manner and people know exactly when i'm doing it.
so then, you like me based on the fact that i'm constantly jerky and it's like some weird jealousy thing? very odd. but then, i'm an intellectual smart bitch. huzzah!