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I MET ASHLEE! me my babae (vero) donny and marissa went to see ashlee on wednesday! the show was really awesome! i got all emo when they played undiscovered! aww lol. but yeah the show rocked! after the show me and vero ended up waitin outside for ashlee. we saw the parents and her band...and NICK and JESSICA, even their lil doggie daisy lol. it was gr8. after that ashlee came out and i got her autograph! im too lazy to go to photobucket, but if u wanna see go to my myspace profile ;-) that was a good night! <3'd it!
uhm, on tuesday my grandma passed away. It was sad, i rememebr all the times i would have to walk her up and down the stairs...thats never gna happen again. It was so crazy to see her laying there in the hospital...dead. but at least now shes at peace. She was in the hospital for over a month, but basically dead. the only thing keepin her alive was that respirator she was on. but basically the rest of her was dead. so yea shes at peace now. im gna be one of the ones carryin her at her funeral...aww, last time i get to walk with her.
i have a new POV now. its basically i cut people out of my life who have fucked up. i did it with luis when he was tellin people we were boning, which we WERENT. i did it with albert...who's juss an all around bad person. i did it with gilbert cuz he kept stuff from me. and thats the way im doing stuff now. i dont know if its good or bad to automatically stop talkin to people cuz of stupid shyt they do...but thats what im doin. i dont need drama or stupidity in my life.
and of course, last but not least...thomas. ive given up. living in a dream of me and him is not the way my life should be lol. i juss hope that he doesnt realize something too late. a few days ago he told me he kinda liked me but it was only cuz i give him the attn armando doesnt. whatevz. im not gna try anymore. i mean, if we kiss or whatever now i know its all juss...fun, or thats what im gna view it as. no more "aww, maybe he does like me?" or shyt like that. no more thinking about it. if he actually comes and says "i like you" then k0oL. im glad were friends and thats all we are. im juss sad cuz hes so special to me and i dont want him to wantsomething once ive already moved on. i doubt it though. im sure if he were to someday say he wanted to try something id be down for it, only cuz hes so special. its hard to understand why he likes armando when i could treat him so much better, but its his choice. juss like how im so into him when there are guys that call me every day and tell me so many things that make me feel special. yeah...im juss not gna think about it. i dont even want a relationship right now. but that fucker...hes so irresistible.
PS i had already written this entry but..the stupid computer or LJ didnt save it for some reason...so this is me typing out what i remember from the post in a hurry. cuz my moms bitchin at me to go eat lol...
uhm, on tuesday my grandma passed away. It was sad, i rememebr all the times i would have to walk her up and down the stairs...thats never gna happen again. It was so crazy to see her laying there in the hospital...dead. but at least now shes at peace. She was in the hospital for over a month, but basically dead. the only thing keepin her alive was that respirator she was on. but basically the rest of her was dead. so yea shes at peace now. im gna be one of the ones carryin her at her funeral...aww, last time i get to walk with her.
i have a new POV now. its basically i cut people out of my life who have fucked up. i did it with luis when he was tellin people we were boning, which we WERENT. i did it with albert...who's juss an all around bad person. i did it with gilbert cuz he kept stuff from me. and thats the way im doing stuff now. i dont know if its good or bad to automatically stop talkin to people cuz of stupid shyt they do...but thats what im doin. i dont need drama or stupidity in my life.
and of course, last but not least...thomas. ive given up. living in a dream of me and him is not the way my life should be lol. i juss hope that he doesnt realize something too late. a few days ago he told me he kinda liked me but it was only cuz i give him the attn armando doesnt. whatevz. im not gna try anymore. i mean, if we kiss or whatever now i know its all juss...fun, or thats what im gna view it as. no more "aww, maybe he does like me?" or shyt like that. no more thinking about it. if he actually comes and says "i like you" then k0oL. im glad were friends and thats all we are. im juss sad cuz hes so special to me and i dont want him to wantsomething once ive already moved on. i doubt it though. im sure if he were to someday say he wanted to try something id be down for it, only cuz hes so special. its hard to understand why he likes armando when i could treat him so much better, but its his choice. juss like how im so into him when there are guys that call me every day and tell me so many things that make me feel special. yeah...im juss not gna think about it. i dont even want a relationship right now. but that fucker...hes so irresistible.
PS i had already written this entry but..the stupid computer or LJ didnt save it for some reason...so this is me typing out what i remember from the post in a hurry. cuz my moms bitchin at me to go eat lol...