finallly...
Damn, life has changed since last time i came on here. i FINALLY moved outta my house. i wrote my parents a "coming out" sort of letter and left. This was on Tuesday. And on Friday I wentt to pick up more stuff from home. I went with my mom to the doctor for her radiation. We talked about the letter, she said im her son and she loves me, which is good. But she also kinda implied its only a phase by saying that lots of people "turn straight" after they grow up. she said "maybe you'll change...or stay the same" blah. well, at least she's... good about it. i asked if my dad read the letter, she said she's trying to tell him slowly cuz its harder for him. blah. haha, she told me she thought when she saw me i was gna show up in like, red lipstick and girl clothes. haha, i thought that was funny. she was being super nice when i went over to visit/pick more stuff up. i think our relationship in general is gna get a lot better with me not living with them. Like when we talk on the fone now i actually wanna tell her i love her n stuff and i miss her. everythings goin good. not living at home is...so relaxing. not having to worry about lying to them n stuff. my mom told me to call and not lose touch. and im supposed to go with them with the rest of the family for easter or whatever, thats k0oL. lol.
im living with gilbert now, and its purty k0oL...even tho ive probly stayed more nights at thomas' than there lol. ahh, *sigh* thomas. hehe. me and thomas have gotten pretty close. im so excited. he says he LIKES me. finally. we've hung out sooo much throughout the past...few weeks. yesterday when i saw him he told me he missed me. so cute! right now we're juss "seeing what happens in the future.." so yeah. i dont know what to label it but i guess were dating? LoL, i unno. ask him. whatever, all i know is that im happy that he finally feels something for me. he's the most adorable guy EVER. i love the feeling when we're laying in his bed with our arms wrapped around eachother. when were laying there i think about the fact that im laying there with thomas in my arms, it brings the biggest smile to my face. it took fuckin a year and like 3 months, but i can FINALLY say that he likes me =) now im only scared that im setting myself up for major heartbreak...and i kinda wanna hold back. but its thomas, how could i resist? ive been on the nuts for so long lol, it'd be dumb not to try and see where we go. whatever ends up happening will only make me stronger and ill learn from it.
PS! i finally pierced my ear! =D
im living with gilbert now, and its purty k0oL...even tho ive probly stayed more nights at thomas' than there lol. ahh, *sigh* thomas. hehe. me and thomas have gotten pretty close. im so excited. he says he LIKES me. finally. we've hung out sooo much throughout the past...few weeks. yesterday when i saw him he told me he missed me. so cute! right now we're juss "seeing what happens in the future.." so yeah. i dont know what to label it but i guess were dating? LoL, i unno. ask him. whatever, all i know is that im happy that he finally feels something for me. he's the most adorable guy EVER. i love the feeling when we're laying in his bed with our arms wrapped around eachother. when were laying there i think about the fact that im laying there with thomas in my arms, it brings the biggest smile to my face. it took fuckin a year and like 3 months, but i can FINALLY say that he likes me =) now im only scared that im setting myself up for major heartbreak...and i kinda wanna hold back. but its thomas, how could i resist? ive been on the nuts for so long lol, it'd be dumb not to try and see where we go. whatever ends up happening will only make me stronger and ill learn from it.
PS! i finally pierced my ear! =D