I finally was able to cry today while watching
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uthxUVMcYw I don't want to give up, but it's not my choice to make and the person who it was up to decided to. I could not stop myself from looking at pictures of her while crying. Glutton for punishment. There were so many beautiful pictures of her and beautiful memories that we shared from those pictures, but I suppose that's what it is, a memory. A damn good memory...