Ah Yeah....
Sometimes I wonder why I am bothering. I dont know any more. Love seems to be a grand thing, but can love hold you together when you are so mad/frustrated you want to pull all your hair out and make your lover Eat it?
Or When you Know deep down in your Heart that this may not be what you are supposed to be doing.
But it isn't as easy as leaving, Oh Hell no. Because of the Family ties and the other bull shit that is entwined in having an almost 4 year relationship.
When you see your lover dreaming about "future" life, telling you what and how it would be... but never starting.
Have you ever stopped to think... Who the Hell Am I? When Did I let myself become so fucking passive. When Did I Let some one else control my happiness.
Or... When... When Am I right? When?
Just leaving isn't an option at this point, No. I'm Just locking myself up inside, shutting down.
When Spring comes, that will be the true tale sign. When everything becomes fresh... when the death goes away... That is when I will Know, exactly What the hell I'm waiting for...
If Only he could See how Deeply He cuts my soul.
Or When you Know deep down in your Heart that this may not be what you are supposed to be doing.
But it isn't as easy as leaving, Oh Hell no. Because of the Family ties and the other bull shit that is entwined in having an almost 4 year relationship.
When you see your lover dreaming about "future" life, telling you what and how it would be... but never starting.
Have you ever stopped to think... Who the Hell Am I? When Did I let myself become so fucking passive. When Did I Let some one else control my happiness.
Or... When... When Am I right? When?
Just leaving isn't an option at this point, No. I'm Just locking myself up inside, shutting down.
When Spring comes, that will be the true tale sign. When everything becomes fresh... when the death goes away... That is when I will Know, exactly What the hell I'm waiting for...
If Only he could See how Deeply He cuts my soul.