I'm a dick, further musings on 6mo appointment
I like how the pediatrician decided to tell me that my co-sleeping is bothering my sleep because the kids aren't sleeping and I'm up all night.
Granted I did go to bed at 1am because no matter how hard I tried to get the kids down they wouldn't sleep. So we all passed out around then (starting time to try to get them down? 9pm. People need to quit telling me to try to get them down before 11. IT NEVER WORKS.), but I woke up around 5am. Because I woke up. And because I realized from 5-7/9a is the only real alone time I get. And it's the only alone time I've gotten. I mean, sure, I guess I could get this same alone time with them in their cribs and then Mike could sleep in bed again.
BUT if I don't sleep it really has less bearing on where the kids sleep and more to do with if I don't get up in the middle of the night and get away for a little bit I am with them almost 24/7 unless I'm at work.
I really should have asked the doctor how I get me time without co-sleeping because right now the co-sleeping means I get me time. I'm afraid that when I move them to their cribs they'll be up all night again and it'll mean me being with them all day and all night with no reprieve ever.
I want to say, that's selfish isn't it, but seriously. My night time alone time is precious.
PRECIOUS. THEY CAN TAKE MY BED IF I GET TO STAY BY MYSELF.
Granted I did go to bed at 1am because no matter how hard I tried to get the kids down they wouldn't sleep. So we all passed out around then (starting time to try to get them down? 9pm. People need to quit telling me to try to get them down before 11. IT NEVER WORKS.), but I woke up around 5am. Because I woke up. And because I realized from 5-7/9a is the only real alone time I get. And it's the only alone time I've gotten. I mean, sure, I guess I could get this same alone time with them in their cribs and then Mike could sleep in bed again.
BUT if I don't sleep it really has less bearing on where the kids sleep and more to do with if I don't get up in the middle of the night and get away for a little bit I am with them almost 24/7 unless I'm at work.
I really should have asked the doctor how I get me time without co-sleeping because right now the co-sleeping means I get me time. I'm afraid that when I move them to their cribs they'll be up all night again and it'll mean me being with them all day and all night with no reprieve ever.
I want to say, that's selfish isn't it, but seriously. My night time alone time is precious.
PRECIOUS. THEY CAN TAKE MY BED IF I GET TO STAY BY MYSELF.