im so sorry love. i have one grandpa left out of three and i cant stomach to think about losing him either.. but i know one day i will. i'll be thinking about you tonight.. and tomorrow... <3
He wasn't my blood grandfather. That's the kicker of the situation. I haven't talked to either of my other Grandfather's since I was at least 17.
The upside is we knew. He'd been sick for a long time, so truth be told where ever he is he is comfortable and no longer in pain. I told my friend Katie I can't ever think of him without thinking of his hacking cough and the napkin he needed to cough into. He was very sick and he beat the estimated time left to live REPEATEDLY. He was just wonderful.
I realized he was the only man to ever tell my exhusband to be good to me. No one but my Mother ever said that to him from my side.
when my mom's dad died... my stepdads dad was at the funeral. i remember he grabbed me after the funeral, when they were putting him in the ground, and i was trying soo hard not to cry.. and he pulled me close to him, and goes well i guess i'm the only grandpa you have left now.. and i just lost it. he held me while i cried and cried and cried. i dont get to see my real dads dad much because they live in florida, so in a way he was right. my grandpa taught me how to mess around on cars, gave me a love for 57 chevys.. and told me i was having a little girl. i had to bury him three months after my stepdad died. he was always sick too.. but i never realized it, or that it was cancer until a few months before he passed.
it doesnt matter that he wasnt blood. he filled that roll in your life, and for that you'll always have him with you. you have his stories and ways to pass on to the little ones. that's how he'll keep on living.
I need to find the picture of him from my wedding. It's my favorite story ever so I'm going to tell you because it's my LJ and you can't tell me no
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It's okay, but I really do appreciate it. It's selfish to want someone to live forever when they're in pain. The world could have just used at least ten of him.
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The upside is we knew. He'd been sick for a long time, so truth be told where ever he is he is comfortable and no longer in pain. I told my friend Katie I can't ever think of him without thinking of his hacking cough and the napkin he needed to cough into. He was very sick and he beat the estimated time left to live REPEATEDLY. He was just wonderful.
I realized he was the only man to ever tell my exhusband to be good to me. No one but my Mother ever said that to him from my side.
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it doesnt matter that he wasnt blood. he filled that roll in your life, and for that you'll always have him with you. you have his stories and ways to pass on to the little ones. that's how he'll keep on living.
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Sounds awesome.
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