The Three R's - Rememberence, Remorse, Rejoyce
Do you ever get that feeling that you cant escape some sort of weird destiny? (I dont have that feeling personally at the moment I was just curious).
Actually more and more I realize that im like my dad which is frightening...I manage to piss off all my friends at one point or another with what I say or what I do, but a lot of times I dont care if I do.
Hell by a lot of people im probably considered to be a prick, an asshole and a guy that has THE biggest stick up his ass constantly about everything and anything.
It's a gross representation but I'm not so blind to my own actions that I dont realize that what I say and do effects other people. To not realize something like that, well your blind if you dont realize that kind of thing.
But even though a lot of times I just respond to situations with anger its never how I really feel so with regards to past, present and future events im sorry when I come off as a giant pissed off asshole with the omega stick up my ass - its not how I really feel a lot of the times.
I tell you all really just cuz I know I've made you all angry at some point or another (sometimes I know what I did, other times I dont for whatever reason) but even though I may say one thing one day I'm glad for my true friends that are around me and I appreciate everything and anything you all do for me.
In actuality everyone does a lot for me...Afterall aside from a persons parents friends are what make a person a person.
You learn a lot through your friends, and if your smart you wont drop those true friends or do anything to ever turn your back on them.
With a lot of you I've been pissed but we've worked through it, with others well Im not so lucky to have worked through some old grudges and what not. Maybe one day we'll work through those things, maybe we wont.
The point is that your deeds and your actions never go unnoticed and I think its a good thing for everyone to know that even though sometimes shit happens and I may first do the wrong thing im always willing to correct the bad thing and make it a good thing.
I ask for patience and understanding more than anything really cuz I can only imagine what im like to deal with.(probably a lot like my dad I'd imagine) in which case I'm very sorry for it and in the present and in the future you can always count on me for anything - My solemn promise.
I'll never forsake the friends I've made, the friends I've lost, The girls Ive been with, the girls that I left...I'll never forsake the gifts given to me and I'll never be a prude when it comes to giving others recognition for what they've done for me.
So just remember that my anger..my personal anger is only skin deep..On the inside I feel other things so I'll do my best to not lose my temper or be so quick to punch someone out of anger (That mostly applies to james though cuz well he's been a personal punching bag for oh so many people).
Look at it this way man.....maybe you have done something stupid before and maybe you do things that kinda tick me off but I'll work on my own shit and see about giving myself a stick-removal-from-ass-ependectimy.
Your a great sport for never throwing a punch back at me...your a bigger man for it...Here's to success in the future - both mine and yours.
God bless, everyone.....Remember there is always love for ya' here...regular friendly pats on the back or more so *rowr*
anyways its about 3:12am and I have class at 3pm tomorrow ...I should try and get a little bit of sleep ...I have some banking to do before school but on the positive side school is looking like its going to be good...Though I had my first (and certainly not last) zombie moment today on the way home on the bus..not fun but its part of the trade..Us Graphics Designers shape the world as a friend of mine put it ...we set the trends and tell those regular folks what to get.
I shant let ya'll down and most of all I wont let myself down.
Good bye and God Bless...Do your best now in college because every second of it counts.