No Giving Up
**Well it's not so bad y'all**
**Together we all fall**
Today was better than yesterday. I woke up, feeling great! Well i was tired. I honestly didn't feel like going to school. Mom said i had to though. So up i went & out the door. Stopped to get breakfast on the way.
**Just as long we get up we'll stand tall**
**We shouldn't waste another day**
**Thinking 'bout the things that we forgot to say**
We had to present our skit today. I think we ROCKED! lol...we all forgot at least one line...but hey, those were a ton of lines! Ms. Streblow thought we did really well. At least i think she did. Who knows? Like no one is going to be at school tom. Glenn sucks & we don't have senior day till 4ever form now.
**I'm hittin' back y'all**
**Kickin' these four walls**
So today during enviromental science class i had to go to the library to print something off. Anthony had to go too...lol yay...sooo i followed him in. but he had to sit next to summer. it was cool though. we printed off wht we needed then surfed the teacher websites makin fun of their pics...some of em were pretty cool. then he said something obut pittard & she looked at us... i had to bite my tongue...o the stories i could tell..but man tht was awsome....i think it was the best science class ever!
**Just as hard as I can til I can't crawl**
**I won't waste another day**
I got tht ticket taken care of today. Sent it off to my lawyer. Sissy now has my thingy...i got to talk to her today. tht was pretty cool. Haven't seen her in 4ever. Turns out she has a b/f. Which i thought was pretty cool. She looks really good too. i mean her face was lighted up when she talked bout him. She looked good aside from her bein sick. Gosh i miss those time the 3 of us had. Kenny Chesney...i would give nething to go back to tht concert.
**With all these silly things**
**Swimmin' in my brain**
I started to go down memory lane today. Driving home. I began to asses y i suck soo bad at realationships. I claim tht i have not loved because i still believe tht there is one true love for everybody. Sometimes we fall to things that we think are love, but they really aren't. For some reason i thought about Zach. My first boyfriend. Waaayyyy back in the 7,8, &9th grade. He was AWSOME! Taught me alot. He joined the marines & use to talk about takin me away from here. But then i broke with him. idk y. Sometimes i think i would much rather be wherever he is. But he never made it in the marines. Idk y, but he got kicked out. Drugs i think. I use to think tht all the ppl i dated after him, were just to get rid of him.
**There's no giving up now**
**Do you really want to give this all away**
That was unitl i met matt. I dont' care what nebody says. He was the sweetest boy. I jsut lost interest in him. See thts my problem. I loose interest too easily. He treated me with respect for the most part, until we stopped talking. i mean wht guy would drive out to winston to pick u & ur friend up bc ur sick & can't drive home? I wish we were still friends sometimes.
**Can't you ever see things in a different way**
**Somedays**
**No giving up now**
Sometimes i feel like there are holes in my heart. But i can't look at it tht way. I have to take with me what they gave me. & hope that they take wht i gavce them. Because i gave them a piece of my heart. Everyone's heart heals. The wounds go away. But the memories. The pop up at the most random times. Cherished memories. Thats what they are. I need to be happier about everything. And remember that i cannot change the world. But ican make a diffence.
**Such a beautiful thing to throw away**
**You should think things through**
Sometimes i htink i'm not meant to be in realationships. And that doesn't make me sad. I can stand on my own. Maybe i'm one of the ones not meant to get married. I want kids. But i want to travel. To help ppl. I can't do tht with a family. i wouldn't wanna drag my kids wherever i went bc thts where i wanted to go. And whoever i married would have to come with me. I just fear that something like tht would strain a realationship. Which is totally understanable. I don't know though. I guess God's got a plan rite?
~Crossfade
**Together we all fall**
Today was better than yesterday. I woke up, feeling great! Well i was tired. I honestly didn't feel like going to school. Mom said i had to though. So up i went & out the door. Stopped to get breakfast on the way.
**Just as long we get up we'll stand tall**
**We shouldn't waste another day**
**Thinking 'bout the things that we forgot to say**
We had to present our skit today. I think we ROCKED! lol...we all forgot at least one line...but hey, those were a ton of lines! Ms. Streblow thought we did really well. At least i think she did. Who knows? Like no one is going to be at school tom. Glenn sucks & we don't have senior day till 4ever form now.
**I'm hittin' back y'all**
**Kickin' these four walls**
So today during enviromental science class i had to go to the library to print something off. Anthony had to go too...lol yay...sooo i followed him in. but he had to sit next to summer. it was cool though. we printed off wht we needed then surfed the teacher websites makin fun of their pics...some of em were pretty cool. then he said something obut pittard & she looked at us... i had to bite my tongue...o the stories i could tell..but man tht was awsome....i think it was the best science class ever!
**Just as hard as I can til I can't crawl**
**I won't waste another day**
I got tht ticket taken care of today. Sent it off to my lawyer. Sissy now has my thingy...i got to talk to her today. tht was pretty cool. Haven't seen her in 4ever. Turns out she has a b/f. Which i thought was pretty cool. She looks really good too. i mean her face was lighted up when she talked bout him. She looked good aside from her bein sick. Gosh i miss those time the 3 of us had. Kenny Chesney...i would give nething to go back to tht concert.
**With all these silly things**
**Swimmin' in my brain**
I started to go down memory lane today. Driving home. I began to asses y i suck soo bad at realationships. I claim tht i have not loved because i still believe tht there is one true love for everybody. Sometimes we fall to things that we think are love, but they really aren't. For some reason i thought about Zach. My first boyfriend. Waaayyyy back in the 7,8, &9th grade. He was AWSOME! Taught me alot. He joined the marines & use to talk about takin me away from here. But then i broke with him. idk y. Sometimes i think i would much rather be wherever he is. But he never made it in the marines. Idk y, but he got kicked out. Drugs i think. I use to think tht all the ppl i dated after him, were just to get rid of him.
**There's no giving up now**
**Do you really want to give this all away**
That was unitl i met matt. I dont' care what nebody says. He was the sweetest boy. I jsut lost interest in him. See thts my problem. I loose interest too easily. He treated me with respect for the most part, until we stopped talking. i mean wht guy would drive out to winston to pick u & ur friend up bc ur sick & can't drive home? I wish we were still friends sometimes.
**Can't you ever see things in a different way**
**Somedays**
**No giving up now**
Sometimes i feel like there are holes in my heart. But i can't look at it tht way. I have to take with me what they gave me. & hope that they take wht i gavce them. Because i gave them a piece of my heart. Everyone's heart heals. The wounds go away. But the memories. The pop up at the most random times. Cherished memories. Thats what they are. I need to be happier about everything. And remember that i cannot change the world. But ican make a diffence.
**Such a beautiful thing to throw away**
**You should think things through**
Sometimes i htink i'm not meant to be in realationships. And that doesn't make me sad. I can stand on my own. Maybe i'm one of the ones not meant to get married. I want kids. But i want to travel. To help ppl. I can't do tht with a family. i wouldn't wanna drag my kids wherever i went bc thts where i wanted to go. And whoever i married would have to come with me. I just fear that something like tht would strain a realationship. Which is totally understanable. I don't know though. I guess God's got a plan rite?
~Crossfade