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[thehated]

I have been losing weight like woah. i havent been eating much....i dont know why? im just not hungry i guess. i have been reflecting on my life a lot. i wish i could have done some things differently but mostly i wouldnt change it. i have learned a lot from my past experiences. I was thinking about sean today, i dont know why. i miss what we had and although i know it is essential that we move on with out lives i cannot help but wonder what if. what if it had worked out?i dont know. i guess somewhere in my heart there is still a deep and powerful love for him. i dont know, i never know what to think anymore. sometimes i wish i were older, in order not to deal with all this shit i deal with now, and sometimes i wish i were younger, be simple, waited on, loved. i havent felt loved by many people lately. i guess i am just giving every one an update on my life who isnt on my friends list. i wish i could explain what my heart and soul are telling me right now...trust me, i would if i could.
all my love.
haley.