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it's almost not fair how i've developed a life, created a reputation at sdsu, made an effort to be friends with people, and become my own person... only to leave behind all my hard *wasted* effort for brazil. it's worth it, but it's like damn, for once, i've created a pretty strong network and i have to leave behind the good friends, experience, and influence, just to start anew. maybe its what i need, and maybe it kind of comforts me that i can do it again, but ugh, it's so hard starting from square one. oh well. i hope sdsu hires me again when i come around. even better, what if sf state hired me for their language institute. wow, my life would be almost perfect.