welp
I know i a haven't written in a while. I was going to go to college station this weekend but decided not to because well i just didn't feel like going there. Instead i will be at a party in Ft.Worth hangin out with friends and consuming much booze. Well its friday tomorrow and wow did this week go fast. It seems like it is speeding up and by the time i know it i will be in a rocking chair with my pipe and burbon, or iced tea. Looking out a window or outside watching the sky and birds fly by. The speeding of time really makes me realize just how little time i have to really do the things i was ment to do, and why i was even born. I feel that i am just waisting my time by not really doing anything and just sitting here looking like a zombie, I already have to have a breathing machine to help me breath while i sleep. I want love and a to have a family, I want to be a famous movie Director. I think i can have those things I just have to change a couple of things about my ideas perhaps. Really i just need to stop being scared of what will happen when i do become wealthy with a family and my career. The thing that scares me is the person i will become and will lose the person i stand for right now which is me at this curent state. I have dreams and i see many signs whether you believe it or not but i do and believe. While i was djing a while ago i could have signed with a label and i was approached by many but i chose not to. You might think thats crazy but its not what i wanted. The thing is I set out to do things and i did them. DJ, PRO Gamer, Driven my dream cars, Partied like a rock star, Director, College. I did them all.