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Well, seeing how it has been over a month since I last updated I figured that I would waste some time and throw an entry at ya. Let's see...work is going okay. The long hours are starting to take a toll on my life in many ways. I am so tired that I find myself falling asleep on the phone or being in such a deep sleep that I don't even hear my phone. I really don't go out during the week anymore because I have no time. Between class and then my oh so lovely HOUR drive home every night by the time I get home all I want to do is sleep. Class in itself is going alright. It's getting kinda stressful, but otherwise alright. I will start doing my third ride time (going on 911 calls) starting next week. The nice thing about working out of the same station I am taking my class is I already know most of the EMT's and have a good idea of which ones I want to ride with. I just can't wait for the class to be over & I can take my state exam. Then I can move up in the world of EMS and up on the pay scale! I think I am going to stay in Worcester rather then move to a new station, but the part that sucks is Worcester has no postings for EMT's open so I will have to wait in line behind like 5 other people before I can bid on a shift. Oh well. I will deal with that when that day comes.
My parents divorce is still going on. It has been a little over a year since the started the damn thing and now it has just turned into a game of "She wants everything and he has nothing to give". I have this really deep hatred for my mother and what's funny...is people try to defend her. Why??? If you knew the full story then you would understand how I can say all those things about her and not feel bad about it. Justin is playing little spy and playing both sides so I have stopped talking to him. He's also jealous of the fact that I am actually doing something with my life and he is still stuck in the $6.75/hr job that he busts his ass for. Now I am not saying that I am better then my brother all I am saying is that if the kid put a wee bit more effort into looking for the better job and not being content with minimum wage then he would have no bitch.
Yea, so I finally saw my half brother Kenny and my half sister Kristine for the first time in 12 years last week. It was mixed emotions. I was glad to see them, but angry at the fact that it has taken them this long and a specific circumstance for them to see me. Kris & my dad made amends (finally) so my dad is alittle happier with life. Kenny is trying and I don't know where it's going. What's funny is how my dad keeps their communications secret from me. I could care less what he does, all I care about is not letting him get used by them...AGAIN. Maybe it's true when they say that people change, but in my family... I doubt it.
Been hanging out with the 'Gansett crew more. It's funny to see how much NONE of us have changed since H.S. The only difference now is that I am "Out of the closet", Ryan is finally happy, Stiffler is no longer whipped, Baker has actually gotten cool, and the others are just content. I really wish I never left and went to Quabbin, but I think it actually helped my friendships with all of them.
Don't talk to anyone from Rainbow or DeMolay and I am actually okay with that. I saw JB a few weeks ago at Worcester State and had a quick convo with him, which was nice. He looks good and he & Kate just hit one year...so Congrads to them. I mean, I still talk to Drew and every once in awhile Paul & Mandy...but everyone else just spilt. Do I miss people...sure I miss them but I am not gonna sit here & cry over them. You see, if they were so worried about keeping our friendship then they would make an effort every once in awhile to call me to see if I want to do something. I gave up trying and I finally saw that me putting in the 90% was unfair to me. So, I wish them all the best. I hope life is treating all of them well. But I'm out.
Trying out for a pro woman's football team on the 13'th. They are the Bay State Warriors and they were the 2003 league champs. It's kinda funny, most of these woman are either lawyers, teachers, or ceo's of companies. I mean, weight wise...I am kinda screwed but I still got speed. I guess we will just see how try outs go. I really hope I make the team actually. I think it will be good for me and help me out in alot of aspects of my life.
Well, I guess that's all I am willing to tell you people. I've learned from past experiences (read fights with people) that there are some parts of my life that I don't need to talk about. It's not that they aren't important enough it's just that some things I should keep just between me & those people. So...
Later Dawgs
My parents divorce is still going on. It has been a little over a year since the started the damn thing and now it has just turned into a game of "She wants everything and he has nothing to give". I have this really deep hatred for my mother and what's funny...is people try to defend her. Why??? If you knew the full story then you would understand how I can say all those things about her and not feel bad about it. Justin is playing little spy and playing both sides so I have stopped talking to him. He's also jealous of the fact that I am actually doing something with my life and he is still stuck in the $6.75/hr job that he busts his ass for. Now I am not saying that I am better then my brother all I am saying is that if the kid put a wee bit more effort into looking for the better job and not being content with minimum wage then he would have no bitch.
Yea, so I finally saw my half brother Kenny and my half sister Kristine for the first time in 12 years last week. It was mixed emotions. I was glad to see them, but angry at the fact that it has taken them this long and a specific circumstance for them to see me. Kris & my dad made amends (finally) so my dad is alittle happier with life. Kenny is trying and I don't know where it's going. What's funny is how my dad keeps their communications secret from me. I could care less what he does, all I care about is not letting him get used by them...AGAIN. Maybe it's true when they say that people change, but in my family... I doubt it.
Been hanging out with the 'Gansett crew more. It's funny to see how much NONE of us have changed since H.S. The only difference now is that I am "Out of the closet", Ryan is finally happy, Stiffler is no longer whipped, Baker has actually gotten cool, and the others are just content. I really wish I never left and went to Quabbin, but I think it actually helped my friendships with all of them.
Don't talk to anyone from Rainbow or DeMolay and I am actually okay with that. I saw JB a few weeks ago at Worcester State and had a quick convo with him, which was nice. He looks good and he & Kate just hit one year...so Congrads to them. I mean, I still talk to Drew and every once in awhile Paul & Mandy...but everyone else just spilt. Do I miss people...sure I miss them but I am not gonna sit here & cry over them. You see, if they were so worried about keeping our friendship then they would make an effort every once in awhile to call me to see if I want to do something. I gave up trying and I finally saw that me putting in the 90% was unfair to me. So, I wish them all the best. I hope life is treating all of them well. But I'm out.
Trying out for a pro woman's football team on the 13'th. They are the Bay State Warriors and they were the 2003 league champs. It's kinda funny, most of these woman are either lawyers, teachers, or ceo's of companies. I mean, weight wise...I am kinda screwed but I still got speed. I guess we will just see how try outs go. I really hope I make the team actually. I think it will be good for me and help me out in alot of aspects of my life.
Well, I guess that's all I am willing to tell you people. I've learned from past experiences (read fights with people) that there are some parts of my life that I don't need to talk about. It's not that they aren't important enough it's just that some things I should keep just between me & those people. So...
Later Dawgs