Reflections
"I was the only person going to be a prostitute in search of true love." - Prozac Nation
NickdUDE3 (1:32:10 PM): so whats ur girl situation
LilIke84 (1:32:20 PM): Uh...
LilIke84 (1:32:24 PM): Pretty fucked up.
NickdUDE3 (1:32:50 PM): charlene the main pimps of all pimps and its fucked up
NickdUDE3 (1:32:52 PM): u must be sick
LilIke84 (1:33:20 PM): No...i'm in love
NickdUDE3 (1:33:42 PM): in love uh oh
NickdUDE3 (1:33:55 PM): thats when all pimps lose all there touch
LilIke84 (1:34:12 PM): Exactly.
NickdUDE3 (1:34:28 PM): yea i kno man doesnt that suck ass then u just feel so taken advantage of after that
LilIke84 (1:34:41 PM): Not really...
LilIke84 (1:35:19 PM): I would never give back any one of the single memories I have with her. I wouldn't take back even a single tear. I wouldn't regret a single second I spent with that girl.
NickdUDE3 (1:35:33 PM): yup ur in love
Well, it's true. I have lost my "pimps ways" and I really don't miss it one bit. You see, I love being devoted to one person. I know who I want to spend the rest of my life with and have no need or desire to be with anyone else. I love how she can look at me and know what's wrong with me and knowing how to fix it instantly. The way we fit together is how the pieces of a puzzle fit. She completes me and I complete her. I can sit here & say "I love this girl and would love nothing more then to spend the rest of my life with her." So, no more 'playa please' and no more "Sebastian" ways. The old me would see one person but be "dating" two others. I didn't care who I hurt or who hurt me because in the end there was always going to be those other people to fall back on. Well, I no longer keep around "alternatives". I feel so good only being with just one person. I wish I would have discovered this earlier.
My E.M.T class is going well. Most of the people are pretty chill. There are those few who you know aren't going to pass but they still give it a solid go. Work is alright. Starting to go extremely sick of Rt.2, Rt.68,RT.56,Rt.122 and I-190. My patients are wicked chill and they never fail to crack me up.
Things in my personal life are like a back country road. Some of it's nice & smooth but others are just bumpy & annoying. I just take them day by day and try not to let them bother me. My temper has become shorter this month. I find that I let little things bother much more then they should. I have also been really emotional. It might be PMS, but not for an entire month. So I just have to keep that in check or else I am going to have to get my hands check. I try not to freak out, but sometimes it gets to much.
Haven't seen or talked to Alison much this month. I have been working so much and now with class we don't talk any more then an hour or so because I am so tired. She recently got a job with YOU Inc. and our hours conflict so it makes it hard. Haven't talked to anyone else really. Don't really have the time and half of them have either written me off or I 'dismissed' them.
Well, that's about it from here. Kinda not in much of the 'bare all' kinda mood to tell you exactly everything that is going on. There really are only a hand full of people who have that right.
Oh, started talking to someone from my past again. It's kinda weird and also a 'playing with gas while smoking a cigarette' type of way, but it's fun. I want to see how far the envelope gets pushed before things blow up again. Hopefully they won't, but only time will tell.
Expect updates every once in awhile. No promises though.
NickdUDE3 (1:32:10 PM): so whats ur girl situation
LilIke84 (1:32:20 PM): Uh...
LilIke84 (1:32:24 PM): Pretty fucked up.
NickdUDE3 (1:32:50 PM): charlene the main pimps of all pimps and its fucked up
NickdUDE3 (1:32:52 PM): u must be sick
LilIke84 (1:33:20 PM): No...i'm in love
NickdUDE3 (1:33:42 PM): in love uh oh
NickdUDE3 (1:33:55 PM): thats when all pimps lose all there touch
LilIke84 (1:34:12 PM): Exactly.
NickdUDE3 (1:34:28 PM): yea i kno man doesnt that suck ass then u just feel so taken advantage of after that
LilIke84 (1:34:41 PM): Not really...
LilIke84 (1:35:19 PM): I would never give back any one of the single memories I have with her. I wouldn't take back even a single tear. I wouldn't regret a single second I spent with that girl.
NickdUDE3 (1:35:33 PM): yup ur in love
Well, it's true. I have lost my "pimps ways" and I really don't miss it one bit. You see, I love being devoted to one person. I know who I want to spend the rest of my life with and have no need or desire to be with anyone else. I love how she can look at me and know what's wrong with me and knowing how to fix it instantly. The way we fit together is how the pieces of a puzzle fit. She completes me and I complete her. I can sit here & say "I love this girl and would love nothing more then to spend the rest of my life with her." So, no more 'playa please' and no more "Sebastian" ways. The old me would see one person but be "dating" two others. I didn't care who I hurt or who hurt me because in the end there was always going to be those other people to fall back on. Well, I no longer keep around "alternatives". I feel so good only being with just one person. I wish I would have discovered this earlier.
My E.M.T class is going well. Most of the people are pretty chill. There are those few who you know aren't going to pass but they still give it a solid go. Work is alright. Starting to go extremely sick of Rt.2, Rt.68,RT.56,Rt.122 and I-190. My patients are wicked chill and they never fail to crack me up.
Things in my personal life are like a back country road. Some of it's nice & smooth but others are just bumpy & annoying. I just take them day by day and try not to let them bother me. My temper has become shorter this month. I find that I let little things bother much more then they should. I have also been really emotional. It might be PMS, but not for an entire month. So I just have to keep that in check or else I am going to have to get my hands check. I try not to freak out, but sometimes it gets to much.
Haven't seen or talked to Alison much this month. I have been working so much and now with class we don't talk any more then an hour or so because I am so tired. She recently got a job with YOU Inc. and our hours conflict so it makes it hard. Haven't talked to anyone else really. Don't really have the time and half of them have either written me off or I 'dismissed' them.
Well, that's about it from here. Kinda not in much of the 'bare all' kinda mood to tell you exactly everything that is going on. There really are only a hand full of people who have that right.
Oh, started talking to someone from my past again. It's kinda weird and also a 'playing with gas while smoking a cigarette' type of way, but it's fun. I want to see how far the envelope gets pushed before things blow up again. Hopefully they won't, but only time will tell.
Expect updates every once in awhile. No promises though.