dar...

[thefishfriend]

i can't stand it anymore. i feel as though my heart is being ripped out and i am being forced to watch people jump upon it. i don't know how much more of this i can take and i don't want to frickin wait until after christmas to talk about it. i either want it to be fixed or for it to be over. the sad part, i don't want it to be over but letting it go would be better than living through this pain. the second time this year i have to go through this. i hate watching the people i love walk away. how in the world can i handle it again. i feel as though no matter how hard i try it will never be good enough.

i just want to see your smile.