LJ = Long Journey
The first friend I could remember being on LJ was someone I knew growing up in junior high and high school. My sense of time has been wonky in the last few years so I struggle to make myself remember that it was at least ten years ago when I still keep referring to it as as a few (like less than four or five). Fandoms have moved onto Tumblr and I can't blame them because fandoms find what works the better and given Tumblr's sharing capabilities compared to LJs, I don't blame them. However, I don't regret having a permanent account on here because it allows me my space of the internet to write and regardless of what I use for tagging; it's for my benefit rather than the public's.
It's been over a month since I've last posted. The psychiatrist report did confirm a mood disorder, though to be fair, depression is a mood disorder. To be more specific, I have manic depression, which is more commonly known as bipolar disorder type II. Instead of being angry, I felt rather relieved. I'm glad they diagnosed correctly this time because it means I can get better rather than reaching around frantically in the dark like I had been around ten years ago. The medication seems to be working at the moment, when I remember to take it. It's one that I'm supposed to take around the time I'm about to sleep since it will make me drowsy. I had trouble sleeping before the holidays so the doctor had prescribed to me sleeping pills. These meds I'm on now put those to shame. I would never attempt to drive after taking one of these because they are very strong.
The doctor said it was a good thing I kept a journal as it would be easier to check and how the meds are affecting me. I have come to one conclusion so far: the meds work so long as I get eight hours of sleep and I'm not working off a sleep debt. If I am, the meds only partially work. They hold back the anger, much like pulling back a punch. I will still feel frustrated or angry but I won't be consumed by it like I have been for the past year or so. This is why sleep is currently my highest priority...which I'm failing, but I'm recovering faster.
I'm hoping to finally graduate by 2015. Frankly I don't think I can support this any longer but I'll take any advantage I can get. I'm also trying to write more. I still have not given up on Young Justice though at this point, I greatly worry about DC's animated works since Beware the Batman still hasn't resumed. I'm holding out hope that DC decides YJ was worth saving after all. I liked the Green Lantern series as well but YJ was my next major fandom. I'm still fluttering between fandoms right now. I suspect it will be another year or two before I find my next fandom home.
There are two fic paths I can take right now. The first is writing what I've dubbed The Speed Force Trilogy, which includes Young Injustice: Heroes Among Us, Young Justice: Flashpoint Countdown and Young Justice: Crisis on Earth-16, and two "season three" fics: The Alice Chronicles and The Judas Contract. pasifik and I still have The Brothers of Ba Sing Se to finish. Then there's Sky's Folktale, where I hope when I'm done someone would read it. I mean the luckiest thing for that fic is if Genbu Kaiden finally gets animated.
As Kenneth Oppel once advised me, pick one.
Unfortunately, firm decision-making has never been one of my strong points. I figured I'll go with Young Injustice first since that's the one I'm most inspired to write right now. I did get a few pages done for the first chapter before the holidays but I seem to be back on the plotting board. If I can start posting this story by April 9th though, I will be incredibly happy. The date's only significance is that it will be after classes have ended for the semester plus the day I started playing the Injustice mobile game (and am still playing). The game's probably my worst addiction since it doesn't require skill or memorization of combos. In the actual console game, the only character I can play reasonably well would be Batgirl since her supermove can be activated through my frantic and random button mashing.
It's been over a month since I've last posted. The psychiatrist report did confirm a mood disorder, though to be fair, depression is a mood disorder. To be more specific, I have manic depression, which is more commonly known as bipolar disorder type II. Instead of being angry, I felt rather relieved. I'm glad they diagnosed correctly this time because it means I can get better rather than reaching around frantically in the dark like I had been around ten years ago. The medication seems to be working at the moment, when I remember to take it. It's one that I'm supposed to take around the time I'm about to sleep since it will make me drowsy. I had trouble sleeping before the holidays so the doctor had prescribed to me sleeping pills. These meds I'm on now put those to shame. I would never attempt to drive after taking one of these because they are very strong.
The doctor said it was a good thing I kept a journal as it would be easier to check and how the meds are affecting me. I have come to one conclusion so far: the meds work so long as I get eight hours of sleep and I'm not working off a sleep debt. If I am, the meds only partially work. They hold back the anger, much like pulling back a punch. I will still feel frustrated or angry but I won't be consumed by it like I have been for the past year or so. This is why sleep is currently my highest priority...which I'm failing, but I'm recovering faster.
I'm hoping to finally graduate by 2015. Frankly I don't think I can support this any longer but I'll take any advantage I can get. I'm also trying to write more. I still have not given up on Young Justice though at this point, I greatly worry about DC's animated works since Beware the Batman still hasn't resumed. I'm holding out hope that DC decides YJ was worth saving after all. I liked the Green Lantern series as well but YJ was my next major fandom. I'm still fluttering between fandoms right now. I suspect it will be another year or two before I find my next fandom home.
There are two fic paths I can take right now. The first is writing what I've dubbed The Speed Force Trilogy, which includes Young Injustice: Heroes Among Us, Young Justice: Flashpoint Countdown and Young Justice: Crisis on Earth-16, and two "season three" fics: The Alice Chronicles and The Judas Contract. pasifik and I still have The Brothers of Ba Sing Se to finish. Then there's Sky's Folktale, where I hope when I'm done someone would read it. I mean the luckiest thing for that fic is if Genbu Kaiden finally gets animated.
As Kenneth Oppel once advised me, pick one.
Unfortunately, firm decision-making has never been one of my strong points. I figured I'll go with Young Injustice first since that's the one I'm most inspired to write right now. I did get a few pages done for the first chapter before the holidays but I seem to be back on the plotting board. If I can start posting this story by April 9th though, I will be incredibly happy. The date's only significance is that it will be after classes have ended for the semester plus the day I started playing the Injustice mobile game (and am still playing). The game's probably my worst addiction since it doesn't require skill or memorization of combos. In the actual console game, the only character I can play reasonably well would be Batgirl since her supermove can be activated through my frantic and random button mashing.