its useless
Im up to my ears in the thick smelly slush of adult life,
and Im sure there's more to come, after all Im not grown up yet.
so...
in the midst of all this all I really want is answers to simple questions and I dont want my life to be like a skipping record going on its tune fucking up going back and fucking up again all in the same places.
why cant I force myself into something new?
I hate that nothing is even semi perminent and
I hate that there isnt a steady thought I can come to
I dont like that my body physically aches sometimes when I cant seem to let out the love i feel for random people...but I dont stop feeling it...
I hate that I always come here to bitch about how life is hard...actually no, its not all that hard- just severly confusing.
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF!
I hate feeling purposeless
I hate trying to find purpose in things that I dont find meaningful
I hate purposeless words/conversations
all in all I cant think of a single thing with a solid purpose.
I hate confusion...
I hate talking to people about how confused I am.
I hate still loveing the same guy
I hate not knowing the guy I still love.
and Im sure there's more to come, after all Im not grown up yet.
so...
in the midst of all this all I really want is answers to simple questions and I dont want my life to be like a skipping record going on its tune fucking up going back and fucking up again all in the same places.
why cant I force myself into something new?
I hate that nothing is even semi perminent and
I hate that there isnt a steady thought I can come to
I dont like that my body physically aches sometimes when I cant seem to let out the love i feel for random people...but I dont stop feeling it...
I hate that I always come here to bitch about how life is hard...actually no, its not all that hard- just severly confusing.
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MYSELF!
I hate feeling purposeless
I hate trying to find purpose in things that I dont find meaningful
I hate purposeless words/conversations
all in all I cant think of a single thing with a solid purpose.
I hate confusion...
I hate talking to people about how confused I am.
I hate still loveing the same guy
I hate not knowing the guy I still love.