I will cry no more...
These tears of blood are gone, forever. No it's not because I overcame the odds but because I'm giving in. I'm throwing in the towel. Everything is just something to prevent me from achieving the success I have always strided for. So you know what, forget it. I've realized, it's not worth it, nothing is anymore. I have nothing to live for. You can say that I'm just the average kid, living the average life. But that's where you're all wrong. I've lived my life believing I'm superior to everyone. I've only known being better than normal. But when you realize, that everything is out to just bring you down to that level, and when it ultimately does, there's nothing else you can do, but let it win, because it's a never-ending struggle, in which it will win eventually anyway. So I'm going to be the wise one and make this come to an end before it could get any worse. This might be the last sign of me around these parts for awhile, for that I have no more place anymore, I've lost all feeling for anything. I feel so lifeless, like everything is just an inanimate object, and for that, I am sorry to those who will waste their time showing sympathy, it is not needed, and I have realized tonight, it never was and never will be. I realized that all the bad that's happened has all been caused by me. And for that, it's over. You THINK you hear me knockin', only to realize I never came in...