this is what living like this does
i would do anything in the world for the money for a plane ticket to california. so my dad says to me "if you pay me that $400 that you owe me, ill buy your plane ticket to california". sure it sounds awesome but the part that sucks is that the $400 he's talking about is the money erkin owes me, and since i wont be getting that all at once, in full i wont be going to california. unless i hit the lottery. fuck. whatever, ill get over it. i need a hug so very very very very badly and only one person can give it to me.