Derby
I feel like I haven't stepped up to the plate the past couple of weeks. Being home, I tried to skate in my neighborhood but the roads were too bad....I stayed up too late and only got to the rink once, but had my eyes opened up a little by Scott while we skated. I think I was so afraid that when I got home I just buried myself in work because I felt like I was slipping and just didn't go. I do have very valid reasons for not going, but now I just feel like they're excuses.....so it's time to step it up. A lot.
Tryouts for the team are on August 8th. Everything is coming up really quickly for me. I absolutely have to get onto the team. This is the longest thing I've stuck with that's been a passion of mine since...well, painting and drumming. I'm so afraid that I'm going to fall through the cracks again. So now I have to empower myself again. To climb into that bloody crack and pull my ass out and onto the wood and pavement.
I've got a lot to work on. So here goes. I'm going to take my skates to West Virginia. I'm going to spend as much time with my family, but at night I'm going to go into the root cellar and get that fucking turn around toe stop down. I'm going to work on all of my stops in the basement at night, and I'm going to hope that during the day the road will be good enough to actually skate on. I don't remember the condition of the road in terms of skating....I think it's asphalt...so perhaps it'll just be the root cellar for me. It's a nice paved surface.
I don't want to fail and have to wait until the winter to get onto the team. It's time for me to become the derby girl that I know I can be. I just hope I can do it in time.
Tryouts for the team are on August 8th. Everything is coming up really quickly for me. I absolutely have to get onto the team. This is the longest thing I've stuck with that's been a passion of mine since...well, painting and drumming. I'm so afraid that I'm going to fall through the cracks again. So now I have to empower myself again. To climb into that bloody crack and pull my ass out and onto the wood and pavement.
I've got a lot to work on. So here goes. I'm going to take my skates to West Virginia. I'm going to spend as much time with my family, but at night I'm going to go into the root cellar and get that fucking turn around toe stop down. I'm going to work on all of my stops in the basement at night, and I'm going to hope that during the day the road will be good enough to actually skate on. I don't remember the condition of the road in terms of skating....I think it's asphalt...so perhaps it'll just be the root cellar for me. It's a nice paved surface.
I don't want to fail and have to wait until the winter to get onto the team. It's time for me to become the derby girl that I know I can be. I just hope I can do it in time.