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i have so much anger about things that i feel i can prevent but i let happen anyway. i am so angry about how people turn out sometimes. i have really high expectations for those i care about the most, and when they are totally fucking up their lives it fucks me up. i want to be there to help them so bad. i feel like a failure as a true friend when i watch someone fuck up their shit without realizing it. guilty for actually caring for someone, even when they don't want to change at all, which is mostly the case. the ultimate importancy of this stupid rant is that all you fucks that i care about more than myself should fucking take care of themselves and not make me worry about them. it fucks with me. i know you're capable of it.