feast or famine
this philosophy is once again proving its validity in my life..but i'll get to that in a second.
i got out of the crappy funk that i was in after saturday was over. sunday david and i hung around in bed until we went to the athletic park in cergy pantoise. it had been 3 whole weeks since i've done anything athletic and it definitely showed. we did the military course and ran a few miles. i was unimpressed by my performance but i was happy to get back into the sports/running mode. plus, david is so awesome when it comes to motivation. i suck at it. i don't even count outloud when he does the pull-ups. yet for me, he won't make me quit but does it in a way that really encourages you. i guess that's part of his training. that evening we ate at his parents and had a good laugh about stuff in general. they're awesome people.
there has been a lot of discussion recently about what i'm going to do after may. basically what i want to do, what my options are etc. i've been pessimistic about decent salaries in france, especially at Y&R. just a lot of shit going on in my head and i know for david it's a lot too. but whatever, i'm not about to change my life for him. my career or work will come first in this situation. no doubt about that.
tuesday--part I: i was in my strategic management prof's office to talk to him about our dying virtual company and happened to but into a convo with another student about job interviews. i mentioned how google's are grueling, hence the reason (or one of them) i'm so hesitant about applying. my prof was like, "wait..you wanna work for google??? doing what?" marketing/business. with that, he wheeled over to his computer where he had just received an email from a former student that morning. he had meant to mention it to my class but forgot (thank god!). apparently, this girl's bro works for google EU and is looking for an intern for 6 months, with a strong possibility for it to lead to a full-time position. they are so busy and have no time to even make a job description but need someone asap with really good grades etc etc. my prof recommended me to her and by that evening i had sent my resume and transcripts to which she forwarded to her brother. AMAZING.
the internship would be in dublin for 6 months but who the fuck cares?! it's google. plus, it's google EU so maybe if something were to come out of it i could just hop back to france- not unlikely with my knowledge of the french language. they pay is good for an intern, and realllllly good as an employee. plus, i feel like this way i have an "in" since i know my resume is going to be looked at and not just lost in some vast database of thousands of other applicants. however, maybe i'm not google material?? fuck it. it's my dream job. i BELONG there!
david was happy, by reserverd about the whole thing because he knows it would probably mean the end to us. he thinks our story is "trop beau" for it to be real. i'm not giving it that much thought. i like to just go with the flow.
that evening david took me to aquaboulevard to the indoor water park. i had never been and it was fun to act like a kid and go down slides. we ended up staying til 9:30 at night. we talked in the jacuzzi for about 2 hours about life and us and relationship stuff. for dinner we went to a new restaurant in my quartier. we happened to pass it on the way home and i spontaneously told him to pull over. good choice too, i had a great seafod tartare and him a peice of beef that looked sooo good. yum!
part II: wednesday i usually have a mini-meeting with my pseudo-boss sandrine to go over where i'm at with my projects. at the end of the duscusssion she popped the question: what i plan on doing after may, am i done with school etc etc etc. music to my ears. i expressed my ethusiasm and desire to stay in france, especially in Y&R. she said that she, and i think the others, would love to keep me on the team and would offer me something in the way of a full-time position IF it's in the budget and it's viable. so no promises. but still..i was thrilled. i had lunch with samira to tell her about my new opportunities and get some advice. i really need to be ready with a number when it comes to negotiating my contract. i fear that i'll get some shitty salary that won't be motivating and won't be worth it for me. already i have a hard time imagining living in france with french salaries and i know they won't be super generous. luckily on friday i'm meeting with prof barnet, who worked at Y&R for 35 years. he can definitely give me the advice i need. i honestly want 2000/month net. but i doubt i'll even get 2000/brut which is like 1500. err.
last night i went running with david in bois de boulogne. he picked me up at work and go to see inside my building, which he loved and understood why i love it too. while running and doing the military course i basically yapped on about my opportunties and possibilities. i know he wants me to stay in france..a lot. but he has a hunch that i'll go for the google thing if they want me. it's a HUGE decision and i don't even want to get into all the details but there is a lot on my plate. a lot.
today i got the idea (another crazy one) of becoming a voluntary firefighter in france. you don't need to be french and you even get paid. for a 24 hour shift (which you have to do 2 per month or break it up) you can get 120-180 euros. that's awesome (non-taxed) pocket money. plus it's great for the sports aspect of it. i'd definitely consider it if i end up staying in france...which, the more i look up stuff about google recruiting and interviews, i think i might stay here. i can still, and will, apply to the google positions in paris but i think that without the direct contact it will be harder. i don't know. i want it so bad.
i got out of the crappy funk that i was in after saturday was over. sunday david and i hung around in bed until we went to the athletic park in cergy pantoise. it had been 3 whole weeks since i've done anything athletic and it definitely showed. we did the military course and ran a few miles. i was unimpressed by my performance but i was happy to get back into the sports/running mode. plus, david is so awesome when it comes to motivation. i suck at it. i don't even count outloud when he does the pull-ups. yet for me, he won't make me quit but does it in a way that really encourages you. i guess that's part of his training. that evening we ate at his parents and had a good laugh about stuff in general. they're awesome people.
there has been a lot of discussion recently about what i'm going to do after may. basically what i want to do, what my options are etc. i've been pessimistic about decent salaries in france, especially at Y&R. just a lot of shit going on in my head and i know for david it's a lot too. but whatever, i'm not about to change my life for him. my career or work will come first in this situation. no doubt about that.
tuesday--part I: i was in my strategic management prof's office to talk to him about our dying virtual company and happened to but into a convo with another student about job interviews. i mentioned how google's are grueling, hence the reason (or one of them) i'm so hesitant about applying. my prof was like, "wait..you wanna work for google??? doing what?" marketing/business. with that, he wheeled over to his computer where he had just received an email from a former student that morning. he had meant to mention it to my class but forgot (thank god!). apparently, this girl's bro works for google EU and is looking for an intern for 6 months, with a strong possibility for it to lead to a full-time position. they are so busy and have no time to even make a job description but need someone asap with really good grades etc etc. my prof recommended me to her and by that evening i had sent my resume and transcripts to which she forwarded to her brother. AMAZING.
the internship would be in dublin for 6 months but who the fuck cares?! it's google. plus, it's google EU so maybe if something were to come out of it i could just hop back to france- not unlikely with my knowledge of the french language. they pay is good for an intern, and realllllly good as an employee. plus, i feel like this way i have an "in" since i know my resume is going to be looked at and not just lost in some vast database of thousands of other applicants. however, maybe i'm not google material?? fuck it. it's my dream job. i BELONG there!
david was happy, by reserverd about the whole thing because he knows it would probably mean the end to us. he thinks our story is "trop beau" for it to be real. i'm not giving it that much thought. i like to just go with the flow.
that evening david took me to aquaboulevard to the indoor water park. i had never been and it was fun to act like a kid and go down slides. we ended up staying til 9:30 at night. we talked in the jacuzzi for about 2 hours about life and us and relationship stuff. for dinner we went to a new restaurant in my quartier. we happened to pass it on the way home and i spontaneously told him to pull over. good choice too, i had a great seafod tartare and him a peice of beef that looked sooo good. yum!
part II: wednesday i usually have a mini-meeting with my pseudo-boss sandrine to go over where i'm at with my projects. at the end of the duscusssion she popped the question: what i plan on doing after may, am i done with school etc etc etc. music to my ears. i expressed my ethusiasm and desire to stay in france, especially in Y&R. she said that she, and i think the others, would love to keep me on the team and would offer me something in the way of a full-time position IF it's in the budget and it's viable. so no promises. but still..i was thrilled. i had lunch with samira to tell her about my new opportunities and get some advice. i really need to be ready with a number when it comes to negotiating my contract. i fear that i'll get some shitty salary that won't be motivating and won't be worth it for me. already i have a hard time imagining living in france with french salaries and i know they won't be super generous. luckily on friday i'm meeting with prof barnet, who worked at Y&R for 35 years. he can definitely give me the advice i need. i honestly want 2000/month net. but i doubt i'll even get 2000/brut which is like 1500. err.
last night i went running with david in bois de boulogne. he picked me up at work and go to see inside my building, which he loved and understood why i love it too. while running and doing the military course i basically yapped on about my opportunties and possibilities. i know he wants me to stay in france..a lot. but he has a hunch that i'll go for the google thing if they want me. it's a HUGE decision and i don't even want to get into all the details but there is a lot on my plate. a lot.
today i got the idea (another crazy one) of becoming a voluntary firefighter in france. you don't need to be french and you even get paid. for a 24 hour shift (which you have to do 2 per month or break it up) you can get 120-180 euros. that's awesome (non-taxed) pocket money. plus it's great for the sports aspect of it. i'd definitely consider it if i end up staying in france...which, the more i look up stuff about google recruiting and interviews, i think i might stay here. i can still, and will, apply to the google positions in paris but i think that without the direct contact it will be harder. i don't know. i want it so bad.