In Out Under Water

[thecuteonekills]

There is something about water engulfing you. The way it fills every nook, every cranny, and finds its way into places even you haven't been to. The quiet blue gives a kind of peace that I can't seem to find anywhere else.

Inhale. Dive in. Exhale. One, two, three. Inhale.

Twenty-six years and my life is still a blur. One activity after another, one detour, fork, dead end after another. I know God's got a plan, and I know if i keep walking towards Him, i'll find that i'm right where I'm supposed to be. But faith is never easy.

I don't know why people think that believing in God is the "easy way out". Nothing in life is more difficult than faith.

Inhale. Dive in. Exhale. One, two, three. Inhale.

This competition requires so much. Pain, strength, sacrifice, discipline. Do I really have what it takes? Can I really be as worthy as those who spent their entire lives training their bodies? They're going to watch us and judge. What if they don't like what they see?

Inhale. Dive in. Exhale. One, two, three. Inhale.

Sometimes, I wonder if he's ever going to ask. We talk of all these future things. Maybe right now, it's best not to wonder. Or to talk.

Inhale. Dive in. Exhale. One, two, three.