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So yes, people say leave the past in the past but guess what ? It is probably one of the hardest things to do. So yeah these past 2 years I have been here on a very irregular basis. But who cares? I have been through a lot and different things at the same time. Good and bad. When I created this blog I was really down. Not as down as I once used to be but quite down (and the reasons where no the same). So here we feel myself going over 5 years ago with the same "problems". Eating disorder is chasing me back and my old best friend (aka blade) is kind of coming bak home. So for this occasion of very drowning feelings, I have out myself into some written work again.
NB: I once used to think the only thing that could make me a 100% happy was love and it was the only thing I didn't have. It is, to a certain extent true. But I never thought that my past would ever come back. I have to say, once you have entered a mean circle, you never really get out of it. No matter what.
The voices inside your head
They say scars won't heal
They say this is how you feel.
Scars show the past,
It means forever it will last
They do fade away
But will never go away
A bullet in and your mind blows up
Now all you want to do is cut up
They say again, again, again
They say this is not the end
That feeling won't disappear
This is your biggest fear
It's a mean circle you entered in
There are no escapes so you won't win