Enough.
It will never be enough. Nothing will ever be enough.
I'll never be pretty enough. I'll never be skinny enough. I'll never satisfy myself enough.
Negative terms. Pessimism. What the fuck, seriously? What's wrong with this wrecked society? How far are we going?
There's nothing to do. Self-satisfaction is not a word in my dictionary. I'll never be what I desire to be. There will always be someone to piss me off. Someone to bring me down, no matter how strong I am. I've struggled with a lot of things and overcame the most of them. But thing is, it ALWAYS comes back once in a while. Once you touch it, you're kind of cursed. It might come later but it comes back. You will never get rid of what you've been through.
It's funny how this kind of dark feelings can go away through a period in your life. But you know what ? Nothing will ever go away. I'm not the queen of pessimism I'm just realistic, hell yeah. You know, this kind of shit is just like scars. They heal but in the end, they will never go away and they can be opened again.
It does get better. But it never ends.
Can't wait to write again! Summer holidays I'm waiting for you to give you all my inspiration :)
PS: Happy St Patrick's day a bit late for the Irish around there, and thanks for one of the best SP show in Paris, 2 days ago you guys were awesome!