Because I've been holding it back, I am letting it out.
I am happy again. I honestly didn't think it would happen this fast and I didn't go looking. But when you don't look is when things happen, right? And I didn't even think on Saturday that anything was going to happen. I didn't think he liked me the way I liked him. Turns out he was just as nervous. And sure, it happened kinda fast, but I've started relationships faster than this. I dated Clavis after knowing him for less than a month and I dated Jim 2 weeks after Cyle and I broke up. Not saying I'm not capable of living without a boyfriend, but once I find someone who I want to date, I don't just let them pass. And I don't regret my decision. I met him at my friend Kate's house within the first week after Jim and I broke up. I thought he was attractive and noticed he was wearing a QC shirt. From then on, we kinda flirted at our friend Megan's house and then started talking on AIM for hours and hours. We had so much in common that finally he told me he liked me. We went on a date and just ended up deciding to date after talking through it for an hour. And he's the one who asked me. Basically I felt my feelings weren't going to change in a week's time, so why prolong it? He's been taking things really really slow and been respectful of me, and we've been talking a lot. I really connected with him and things are going great so far.
Also, I'm fucking sick of guys hitting on me. It's weird, not in the right way, and most of the guys were my close friends. I got bought a drink and handed a number by one of my guy friends and it was very awkward the rest of the night. Another guy friend (who happens to be his roommate) likes me and got all weird/upset when he found out I was dating another guy. (Go fucking circle jerk or something...eww). A third guy friend said he was gonna drive down and take me on a date. Another guy friend called me beautiful, etc etc. And then of course there were other guys but I just am sick of it. I am not a girl who enjoys being hit on in that manner. I have been stalked, hit on before and I would rather just be respected/take things slow. It weirds me out when someone comes after me without trying to get to know me beforehand. I don't appreciate that. I am not an object. I am not a goddess. I'm not even that attractive. Don't idolize me. I swear. One of them told me it took him a while to get on the "JC train" (as in understanding why people liked me) until he talked to me (this was after one conversation). Come the fuck on. I am not that interesting/hot or anything so why are you putting me up that damn high. That weirds me out. Also, thanks for not talking to me anymore/not caring since I started dating again.
I am not a girl who goes and dates random guys. I do not like getting hit on by random guys. I want someone who's into me and only me. And when I am single, I don't go searching for men, I meet guys and if there's a connection, cool, I'm lucky. I'm sorry. That's just not who I am. I don't want to get into a situation where I have to decide between more than one guy. I don't want to fall for more than one guy. I don't want to be called a slut. When I date, I date because I like everything about the person and I want to be with them. I'm not saying it's wrong for a person to date around to find out who they like, but I am just not one of those people. Also, I have never cheated on anyone and better damn well not be again.
Also, on the topic of internet dating, I just could never bring myself to do it. People are looking at your profile, judging you. People are fake. You don't know if their profile is really them, and what can you tell from a profile anyways? Not enough. Not for me. I'm glad it works out for some people though, I will admit that two of my friends who are awesome met through a dating site.
That's about it, I just needed a rant.
Also, I'm fucking sick of guys hitting on me. It's weird, not in the right way, and most of the guys were my close friends. I got bought a drink and handed a number by one of my guy friends and it was very awkward the rest of the night. Another guy friend (who happens to be his roommate) likes me and got all weird/upset when he found out I was dating another guy. (Go fucking circle jerk or something...eww). A third guy friend said he was gonna drive down and take me on a date. Another guy friend called me beautiful, etc etc. And then of course there were other guys but I just am sick of it. I am not a girl who enjoys being hit on in that manner. I have been stalked, hit on before and I would rather just be respected/take things slow. It weirds me out when someone comes after me without trying to get to know me beforehand. I don't appreciate that. I am not an object. I am not a goddess. I'm not even that attractive. Don't idolize me. I swear. One of them told me it took him a while to get on the "JC train" (as in understanding why people liked me) until he talked to me (this was after one conversation). Come the fuck on. I am not that interesting/hot or anything so why are you putting me up that damn high. That weirds me out. Also, thanks for not talking to me anymore/not caring since I started dating again.
I am not a girl who goes and dates random guys. I do not like getting hit on by random guys. I want someone who's into me and only me. And when I am single, I don't go searching for men, I meet guys and if there's a connection, cool, I'm lucky. I'm sorry. That's just not who I am. I don't want to get into a situation where I have to decide between more than one guy. I don't want to fall for more than one guy. I don't want to be called a slut. When I date, I date because I like everything about the person and I want to be with them. I'm not saying it's wrong for a person to date around to find out who they like, but I am just not one of those people. Also, I have never cheated on anyone and better damn well not be again.
Also, on the topic of internet dating, I just could never bring myself to do it. People are looking at your profile, judging you. People are fake. You don't know if their profile is really them, and what can you tell from a profile anyways? Not enough. Not for me. I'm glad it works out for some people though, I will admit that two of my friends who are awesome met through a dating site.
That's about it, I just needed a rant.