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[thecornershop]

i havn't yelled for such i long time i expected her to shut up and take it. listen for once. but it's all the same. and finally i've committed myself to the brawl, something i tried to avoid. and i'm shaking because i had forgotten what it felt like. and my hands are jumping because my pulse is going way too fast. and i said fuck so many times and actually got away with it. and the hate's back, i can't believe it took so long.
and i'm trying to go back to that place i was half an hour ago but it's gone. and it's been added to the list of things to never forgive her for.
i expected her to listen. i was stupid.