Moonlight Ride
I tend to, when given the chance, to drive around aimlessly lost in whatever music I'm playing and usually ignoring whatever my destination originally was. Tonight, being no exception, instead of driving home I started to just cruise randomly around Wilmington lost in my music and thoughts. After passing a couple of very shady individuals who were just hanging out at stop signs ( two different intersections mind you) I recalled an old memory of mine. I was around 16 at the time and was starting to really get into electronic music, just about the same time the rave scene was starting to get really popular in Roanoke. The memory was of me just driving around aimlessly on Melrose Avenue passing by random strangers and the occasional car full of rave kids. If my memory serves me correct I had actually snuck out with a friend of mine to actually do all that aimless driving in the early hours of the morning. Those were odd days, working at Spencer's during the week and trying to build up the nerve to go see a DJ I had been listening to at a rave during the weekend even though I lack any sort of dance or rhythm following abilities. Tonight just seemed to bear a strong resemblance to that night back then, except instead of driving around trying to find an adventure or girls, I'm just driving to keep my head clear, and coming across a lot more odd strangers than raver kids for sure. Driving through nearly empty streets in the dead of night, lost in music, with the moon overhead seems to be a recurring theme in my life. It's been a habit of mine since I had a license, from those days of working at the mall all the way to me now, there is definitely a certain calm and an amount of focus there that I can't find anywhere else in my life. Though I will probably have to do research and see if biking with headphones can produce the same effect with the price of fuel not getting any lower.
I've been having a lot of random reminiscing about my teenage years here lately. It's a little funny that back then my biggest concerns were loneliness and rejection and I would think about how things would probably become a little clearer when I was older, when in reality all that happened I earned more things to worry about and things just got more complicated. It is just a little odd that even though I am much better now than I was then, (in better shape, more positive outlook on life believe it or not, actual ambition) I have found myself recently looking back on those days as the much better than they actually were. I hope that isn't a sign of getting old.
I've been having a lot of random reminiscing about my teenage years here lately. It's a little funny that back then my biggest concerns were loneliness and rejection and I would think about how things would probably become a little clearer when I was older, when in reality all that happened I earned more things to worry about and things just got more complicated. It is just a little odd that even though I am much better now than I was then, (in better shape, more positive outlook on life believe it or not, actual ambition) I have found myself recently looking back on those days as the much better than they actually were. I hope that isn't a sign of getting old.