HARD TIMES
yesterday i went to julio's "funeral" with alexa. thats not what i like to call it. it was really hard, but it was a good time. we watched videos richie and eric made. in one of them drew was like "you dont know mothafuckin DRUGITA!!" and i was like "fuck yeah!" cause i fucking love drugita. when he got into his skating, he was like the most exciting hardcore fucking BADASS guys ever, and i loved that.
i couldnt handle irving talking. the thought of losing a TWIN is unimaginable to me.. and he didnt cry but once i think. people made shirt, pins, keychains, cards and things to give out. i got 2 pins and a keychain. the keychain broke, cause its from the dollar store, so i glued it back together. ghetto.
afterwards, people ate, and i munched off alexa's plate. then we went to the skatepark. me shawnalle alexa and stephanie went on a park adventure, then me and alexa got high and went to mcdonalds and saw adam and glenn. glenn came back with us, until we lost him. me and alexa did freestyle walking and i skated a little. until i almost fell and got over it.
after the skate park me and alexa went to bogies house with justin & renne. then fucking richie came and kept us all up until like 5. so i kicked him, threw stuff at him, and made him feel totally exiled so we could all sleep. i did another ARES tag in his honor and its just as good as the other ones i did. they have free NEVER FORGET stickers with everyones names at scab. they do this every time someone passes away. except for this one hit everyone hard. i didnt think something like this would happen, ever. you think about it, then say "it'll never happen here or to anyone i know" then it does.
justin kicked my ass this morning. i told him i liked it rough, but not THAT rough. he literally got on top of me and acted like a girl, then tried hurting me in every way possible, and alexa was just sitting there cracking up. me and justin need to get over the beating stage, and just like.. have some hardcore sex or something. or MAYBE just a hug. sorry, im fucking out of my mind right now. ive been talking out of my ass for so long, and i dont know where this is headed. so i'll end on a profound note.
i got in a much better mood at the park with everyone and from the love that has been coming from everywhere with everyone gathering and shit. everyone just goes down there and skates their fucking heart our for jules, DRUGITA, evan, matt and tammy. everyone is in a better mood now because they all know the guys are in a better place looking down at us, and they're happy, pain free. its still hard to program into my head and a lot of times i just start thinking to myself, im never going to walk into longs and get a huge hug from julio ever again, and he isnt going to pop up by the magazine isle anymore. i'll see them again.
i couldnt handle irving talking. the thought of losing a TWIN is unimaginable to me.. and he didnt cry but once i think. people made shirt, pins, keychains, cards and things to give out. i got 2 pins and a keychain. the keychain broke, cause its from the dollar store, so i glued it back together. ghetto.
afterwards, people ate, and i munched off alexa's plate. then we went to the skatepark. me shawnalle alexa and stephanie went on a park adventure, then me and alexa got high and went to mcdonalds and saw adam and glenn. glenn came back with us, until we lost him. me and alexa did freestyle walking and i skated a little. until i almost fell and got over it.
after the skate park me and alexa went to bogies house with justin & renne. then fucking richie came and kept us all up until like 5. so i kicked him, threw stuff at him, and made him feel totally exiled so we could all sleep. i did another ARES tag in his honor and its just as good as the other ones i did. they have free NEVER FORGET stickers with everyones names at scab. they do this every time someone passes away. except for this one hit everyone hard. i didnt think something like this would happen, ever. you think about it, then say "it'll never happen here or to anyone i know" then it does.
justin kicked my ass this morning. i told him i liked it rough, but not THAT rough. he literally got on top of me and acted like a girl, then tried hurting me in every way possible, and alexa was just sitting there cracking up. me and justin need to get over the beating stage, and just like.. have some hardcore sex or something. or MAYBE just a hug. sorry, im fucking out of my mind right now. ive been talking out of my ass for so long, and i dont know where this is headed. so i'll end on a profound note.
i got in a much better mood at the park with everyone and from the love that has been coming from everywhere with everyone gathering and shit. everyone just goes down there and skates their fucking heart our for jules, DRUGITA, evan, matt and tammy. everyone is in a better mood now because they all know the guys are in a better place looking down at us, and they're happy, pain free. its still hard to program into my head and a lot of times i just start thinking to myself, im never going to walk into longs and get a huge hug from julio ever again, and he isnt going to pop up by the magazine isle anymore. i'll see them again.