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wow.. 2 posts in the same month? Absurd!
But seriously.... I am feeling so volatile right now. So much bullshit is going on, and I am forcing my body through certain changes that I thought might help me... but no. They are making it worse. I gave up smoking (again) for excercising... but I can't do push-ups or Sit-ups when all i think about is the same shit that keeps me awake at fucking 5:30 am. I want to just tear down the sky and jump up beyond it. In one weeks' time I'm sure that everything will be fine (school taken care of, doctors under control, car fixed, girls worked out, etc), but right now, I feel like if one more bad thing happens, I will shatter into tiny little shards that eviscerate everyone around me.
"Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do"
But seriously.... I am feeling so volatile right now. So much bullshit is going on, and I am forcing my body through certain changes that I thought might help me... but no. They are making it worse. I gave up smoking (again) for excercising... but I can't do push-ups or Sit-ups when all i think about is the same shit that keeps me awake at fucking 5:30 am. I want to just tear down the sky and jump up beyond it. In one weeks' time I'm sure that everything will be fine (school taken care of, doctors under control, car fixed, girls worked out, etc), but right now, I feel like if one more bad thing happens, I will shatter into tiny little shards that eviscerate everyone around me.
"Should I bite my tongue?
Until blood soaks my shirt
My hands are at your throat
And I think I hate you
But still we'll say, "remember when"
Just like we always do"