(no subject)
my mind is wildly intrusive
my surroundings are wildly interesting
my past is creeping in
and my future is rudely entering the front door
im aquaintances with a boy named tim
but i dont live his life
but i think we have something in common
and maybe thats why we cant really talk to eachother
he didnt se me fall today
but it hurt
and it felt good.
I have new numbers in my electronic world
but not the one i want
but i dont want it
and i dont think it would work
the jacket was intriguing
so i wondered and didnt really speak
its a nice present to have a 12 year old's communication pattern
sometimes
its like im 12 again
but im not
and i hope the jacket isn't either.
i lack a tall kid, i lack a philosopher
i dont have a life-long avenger
i dont have an adventurer anymore
i will have a job
i might have fun
my eyes look up, when i feel down
a few words have helped me
slightly majestic men have helped me out
some noise shoots me down
takes me off the shelf
but i think i almost belong there
i have mechanical crushes; grinding gears
the other kid that i know too well
dismantles everything for a later date
but never re-assembles.
ive been a factory,
a hole,
a kid,
an adult,
an idiot,
an individual,
a loser...
but really ive just been around.
i know that ive just been a person like everyone else
ive made harsh assumptions and denied rational patience
ive procrastinated
and it made me mad
and learned that it promotes the negative
ive learned a lot of things away from home
at "college"
at a second home.
with myself
without myself
it all comes together
and then utterly falls apart
and its funny and its absoloutly terrible.
ive looked in eyes and cowered away from glances.
been hit on and denied it
been denied and denied it
been alone
but not really alone.
i have a sin
and an answer that i deny most often
i have so many answers
that i dont make use of.
so many answers
that i forget for juvenile reasons.
ive written terrible stories
and summaries
and drawn a few cute pictures
but i still dont deserve anything.
ive asked for things without ever asking
and received things without ever receiving the giver
this summary could last for days
but some things demand work
society demands work
sloth demands nothing
computers demand us
but we dont need to obey
mindlessness is a thing to attain
anti-community is up
anti-physical action is up
letting yourself down is up
paper is more chemical
plastic is more useful
and grass is less comfortable
time keeps moving,
back to work
smoke a cigarette
speak in a diffrent language
thing about key signatures
tell everyone....
Ill tell everyone:
Im back from the dead. if you were worried about me- dont
i live again. ive let some things into me
some hope for others and the world,
but i want to be active ( like always )
i want to have real fun
i want to use my body
not a digital extension
i want to be physical
i want to work
"work"
my surroundings are wildly interesting
my past is creeping in
and my future is rudely entering the front door
im aquaintances with a boy named tim
but i dont live his life
but i think we have something in common
and maybe thats why we cant really talk to eachother
he didnt se me fall today
but it hurt
and it felt good.
I have new numbers in my electronic world
but not the one i want
but i dont want it
and i dont think it would work
the jacket was intriguing
so i wondered and didnt really speak
its a nice present to have a 12 year old's communication pattern
sometimes
its like im 12 again
but im not
and i hope the jacket isn't either.
i lack a tall kid, i lack a philosopher
i dont have a life-long avenger
i dont have an adventurer anymore
i will have a job
i might have fun
my eyes look up, when i feel down
a few words have helped me
slightly majestic men have helped me out
some noise shoots me down
takes me off the shelf
but i think i almost belong there
i have mechanical crushes; grinding gears
the other kid that i know too well
dismantles everything for a later date
but never re-assembles.
ive been a factory,
a hole,
a kid,
an adult,
an idiot,
an individual,
a loser...
but really ive just been around.
i know that ive just been a person like everyone else
ive made harsh assumptions and denied rational patience
ive procrastinated
and it made me mad
and learned that it promotes the negative
ive learned a lot of things away from home
at "college"
at a second home.
with myself
without myself
it all comes together
and then utterly falls apart
and its funny and its absoloutly terrible.
ive looked in eyes and cowered away from glances.
been hit on and denied it
been denied and denied it
been alone
but not really alone.
i have a sin
and an answer that i deny most often
i have so many answers
that i dont make use of.
so many answers
that i forget for juvenile reasons.
ive written terrible stories
and summaries
and drawn a few cute pictures
but i still dont deserve anything.
ive asked for things without ever asking
and received things without ever receiving the giver
this summary could last for days
but some things demand work
society demands work
sloth demands nothing
computers demand us
but we dont need to obey
mindlessness is a thing to attain
anti-community is up
anti-physical action is up
letting yourself down is up
paper is more chemical
plastic is more useful
and grass is less comfortable
time keeps moving,
back to work
smoke a cigarette
speak in a diffrent language
thing about key signatures
tell everyone....
Ill tell everyone:
Im back from the dead. if you were worried about me- dont
i live again. ive let some things into me
some hope for others and the world,
but i want to be active ( like always )
i want to have real fun
i want to use my body
not a digital extension
i want to be physical
i want to work
"work"