One Time
Title: One Time
Length: Oneshot
Pairing: Past!SungHo (SungMin/YunHo), SungMin/Sunny, HeeChul/KyuHyun
Author: TheBlobMaster ^^
Warning: Fail, angsty, swearing
One time. One time. One time. Just one time. I wish everything just would go back to that one time. That one time where everything was bliss. That one time where everyone laughed and smiled together. That one time that was so long ago. That one time that is starting to fade. That one time where I saw him. That one time everything happened so fast. That one time everything ended so sudden. To fast. I still remember his eyes, his smile, his hands. Oh, how I remember those hands. The way they held on to me, never wanting to let me go. The way those hands touched me. Touches’ that was filled with love and passion. Lust. Lust was visible in his eyes, it almost got me on fire. The tension between us so hot, people would’ve been burned if they walked to close. That was how we felt, how we felt that one time. Now so many years after, I still wonder what would’ve happened if he didn‘t leave. So many years after, even though I’m married and have children. I still wonder if I would’ve been happier with him. Living carefree and after my own will. I wonder if he ever settled down, living after the rules. I can’t imagine that. He loved his freedom to much.
Sometimes I feel like I’m cheating on my wife. She’s so beautiful, her personality and smile filled with just as much sunshine as her name. Sunny. She’s always so caring, always cooking for me. Always there. Never asking me any questions about my past. No matter how many times she find me crying, sitting on our bed. The bed we sleep in. The bed where I when no one is around, fantasies about him. She always call out my name soft, her fingers soft against mine. The way she feels under me, soft and hot. But never as hot, as I felt it with him. She’s is always there for me, no matter how angry or how shut in I am. She gave me the most beautiful children one could ever wish for. She was in pain for so many hours, but always smiling when I looked at her. I don’t deserve her. I never did and I never will.
Compared to her, he was rough. He couldn’t cook to save his life. He didn’t care, how I felt when he took me hard and raw. His hands anything, but soft. His body sculptured and full of scars. He could leave me after we just had a session full of passion, without saying a word. Sometimes not coming back for days. I would walk around sleepless of worry, until his friend HeeChul came with him. Looking at me with pity in his eyes. He would always smell like booze and cigarettes. Sometimes I could smell perfume on him. I could see the prints made with lipstick. Still I would take him to the bathroom, wash him up. Wash his sore body with care. Afterwards I would let him take me, he was always so nice to me there. Always taking care of my needs, but that was only because he felt guilty. Not once did he ever apologize to me. I don’t know why I stayed with him. Then one day he just left. I woke up and everything of his was gone. Not one sign was to see that he had lived there in 2 years. I searched for a note, I called him so many times. Until I at last gave up and sank into the couch crying my eyes out. Never in my life would I have thought that he would just leave me here like this. I don’t know how many days that went by where I just stayed there. Not moving, not eating, just crying. Crying everything I had held in. When HeeChul and my friend KyuHyun finally got the door opened and rushed in to see me laying there looking like a ghost. HeeChul was about to trash the whole apartment, I know he knew that he had left me. Otherwise they would never have found me. KyuHyun managed to stop him before he blew up for real. I always envied their relationship. Always so honest, always so clear. Unlike ours.
It took me years, where I only talked to HeeChul and KyuHyun. Before they finally got me on a date. They said she was a sweet girl. The niece of their boss. They said she had seen me in the bar where they work and had been interested in me in a long time.
They were right. She was sweet and gentle. We ended up dating in five years before I finally proposed to her. The same night we found out she was pregnant with our first child. We were frilled and called everybody we knew. HeeChul and KyuHyun came over as the first ones. HeeChul being overly hyper talking about how finally he was going to be an Uncle. He knew that no matter how much he looked like a girl, he wasn’t actually able to have kids. The thought sometimes made him so depressed, that he wouldn’t talk to KyuHyun for days and KyuHyun just worried and worried. He was so worried that he couldn’t play Starcraft. Which made him very irritable, so no one really wanted to be around those two in the few days it went on.
But now finally they could have a child to watch out for. Even though it was only as uncles. They still do. Our kids loves their Uncle Chul and Uncle Kyu. We lived 5 years in happy marriage. I almost forgot about him. Forgot his smiles, forgot all the misery I went through. Then he sends me this letter. Out of all things he sends me a letter, telling me he wants to come and see my children and wife. He want to come in my house that I share with my wife. My Sun now. And just how many days does he think he wants to warn me in to prepare myself to see the love my life. The one who I grieved over in so many years. 3 days. I have 3 days. Or I had 3 days. He’s coming today. Today.
I look outside through the window and see an unfamiliar car driving up in the driveway. I watch as the car parks and a tall defined man walks out. I know it’s him. I can recognize him anywhere. I watch how he slowly walks to the door and hear the bell ringing. ‘I’ll open Umma’ was yelled from downstairs. I can hear him introducing himself to my family. He’s a friend from college apparently. I never knew that. I can hear my lovely wife walk up the stairs and I see her enter the bedroom. ‘Honey, there’s a handsome guy downstairs saying he’s a friend from college’ I look at her. I know I can’t hold back if I go down there. I will scream, cry and act like something I’ve never did in front of anyone beside HeeChul and KyuHyun. ‘I want HeeChul and KyuHyun here. Tell them who came. Tell them I need them’ I know she can see that I’m crying. I know she doesn’t understand, but she doesn’t ask and walks out. I can hear her on the phone. ‘SungMin isn’t acting like usually. Some guy from college called YunHo came and said he wanted to see SungMin. But he’s just crying and saying he wants you guys here’ Nothing else was said after that from this side. I listen as I hear her walk down the stairs and say to the children that they should go over so Aunty SooYoung and that she will join them soon. I know HeeChul blew up, when he heard his name. After he left me, his named was banned. Every time it was mentioned HeeChul would go crazy and smash things.
I look outside again and see HeeChul & KyuHyuns familiar car park and a fuming HeeChul running out of it.
‘WHERE IS HE? WHERE IS THAT BATARD TO YUNHO!?’ I saw, how my Sun ran out the house. ‘SO THERE ARE YOU! HOW DARE YOU!? HOW DARE YOU COMING HERE? AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO HIM? DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY YEARS IT TOOK HIM TO TALK TO SOMEONE ELSE THAN US!? DO YOU!? NO YOU DON’T BECAUSE YOU WEREN’T THERE, YOU FUCKING SON OF A BITCH! THEN YOU DARE COMING HERE, WHERE HE HAS HIS WIFE AND CHILDREN!’ I don’t want to listen anymore, I don’t want to. I don’t want to remember all the pain again. Not again. I don’t want to be alone like that again. Not feeling whole, because one took my heart and smashed it with all of his might. I don’t want to. No. no. no. nonononononononono. NO! I don’t want it, go away, go away.
‘If it weren’t because I know SungMin would despise me forever, I would kill you right here and now’ That low voice. That’s not HeeChul. That’s not how HeeChul talks. It feels more scary, more true, like he really would kill him. I never thought I would ever hear the ever so calm KyuHyun talk like that. ‘GET THE FUCK OUT NOW! DON’T YOU EVER DARE PUTTING A STEP INTO THIS HOUSE OR EVEN NEIGHBORHOOD EVER AGAIN, YOU COWARD OF A BASTARD! I regret ever thinking of you as one of my best friends. You backstabbed us all. Not only did you break SungMins heart, you didn’t even break it. You took it out, stabbed it, threw it on the ground jumping on it, before you ate it. That’s how much of a bastard you were. Do you know how worried I was? You were my best friend and you just suddenly disappeared, not even saying a word. And this I mean, if you ever come near any of us or any of our friends or family, I will personally take care of your death’ I never knew. How come I didn’t know? HeeChul was his best friend after all. He was as much hurt as I was, he just hid it. He tried to put on a strong front for me. I have the best friends in the world. I really do. How come I didn’t know that before?
I hear a motor start and a car drive away. I know that any minute HeeChul and KyuHyun will be in here. Holding me and let me cry. But I wont cry, because finally I can let him go. Finally I can begin to gather all the pieces of my heart together again. Finally I can love my wife like I should. Finally I’m free.
Okay, this is soooo fail! But I hope that at least someone likes it ^^ I had no idea who to put as his wife, so ended up with Sunny.. I hope it doesn't ruin it all.
Length: Oneshot
Pairing: Past!SungHo (SungMin/YunHo), SungMin/Sunny, HeeChul/KyuHyun
Author: TheBlobMaster ^^
Warning: Fail, angsty, swearing
One time. One time. One time. Just one time. I wish everything just would go back to that one time. That one time where everything was bliss. That one time where everyone laughed and smiled together. That one time that was so long ago. That one time that is starting to fade. That one time where I saw him. That one time everything happened so fast. That one time everything ended so sudden. To fast. I still remember his eyes, his smile, his hands. Oh, how I remember those hands. The way they held on to me, never wanting to let me go. The way those hands touched me. Touches’ that was filled with love and passion. Lust. Lust was visible in his eyes, it almost got me on fire. The tension between us so hot, people would’ve been burned if they walked to close. That was how we felt, how we felt that one time. Now so many years after, I still wonder what would’ve happened if he didn‘t leave. So many years after, even though I’m married and have children. I still wonder if I would’ve been happier with him. Living carefree and after my own will. I wonder if he ever settled down, living after the rules. I can’t imagine that. He loved his freedom to much.
Sometimes I feel like I’m cheating on my wife. She’s so beautiful, her personality and smile filled with just as much sunshine as her name. Sunny. She’s always so caring, always cooking for me. Always there. Never asking me any questions about my past. No matter how many times she find me crying, sitting on our bed. The bed we sleep in. The bed where I when no one is around, fantasies about him. She always call out my name soft, her fingers soft against mine. The way she feels under me, soft and hot. But never as hot, as I felt it with him. She’s is always there for me, no matter how angry or how shut in I am. She gave me the most beautiful children one could ever wish for. She was in pain for so many hours, but always smiling when I looked at her. I don’t deserve her. I never did and I never will.
Compared to her, he was rough. He couldn’t cook to save his life. He didn’t care, how I felt when he took me hard and raw. His hands anything, but soft. His body sculptured and full of scars. He could leave me after we just had a session full of passion, without saying a word. Sometimes not coming back for days. I would walk around sleepless of worry, until his friend HeeChul came with him. Looking at me with pity in his eyes. He would always smell like booze and cigarettes. Sometimes I could smell perfume on him. I could see the prints made with lipstick. Still I would take him to the bathroom, wash him up. Wash his sore body with care. Afterwards I would let him take me, he was always so nice to me there. Always taking care of my needs, but that was only because he felt guilty. Not once did he ever apologize to me. I don’t know why I stayed with him. Then one day he just left. I woke up and everything of his was gone. Not one sign was to see that he had lived there in 2 years. I searched for a note, I called him so many times. Until I at last gave up and sank into the couch crying my eyes out. Never in my life would I have thought that he would just leave me here like this. I don’t know how many days that went by where I just stayed there. Not moving, not eating, just crying. Crying everything I had held in. When HeeChul and my friend KyuHyun finally got the door opened and rushed in to see me laying there looking like a ghost. HeeChul was about to trash the whole apartment, I know he knew that he had left me. Otherwise they would never have found me. KyuHyun managed to stop him before he blew up for real. I always envied their relationship. Always so honest, always so clear. Unlike ours.
It took me years, where I only talked to HeeChul and KyuHyun. Before they finally got me on a date. They said she was a sweet girl. The niece of their boss. They said she had seen me in the bar where they work and had been interested in me in a long time.
They were right. She was sweet and gentle. We ended up dating in five years before I finally proposed to her. The same night we found out she was pregnant with our first child. We were frilled and called everybody we knew. HeeChul and KyuHyun came over as the first ones. HeeChul being overly hyper talking about how finally he was going to be an Uncle. He knew that no matter how much he looked like a girl, he wasn’t actually able to have kids. The thought sometimes made him so depressed, that he wouldn’t talk to KyuHyun for days and KyuHyun just worried and worried. He was so worried that he couldn’t play Starcraft. Which made him very irritable, so no one really wanted to be around those two in the few days it went on.
But now finally they could have a child to watch out for. Even though it was only as uncles. They still do. Our kids loves their Uncle Chul and Uncle Kyu. We lived 5 years in happy marriage. I almost forgot about him. Forgot his smiles, forgot all the misery I went through. Then he sends me this letter. Out of all things he sends me a letter, telling me he wants to come and see my children and wife. He want to come in my house that I share with my wife. My Sun now. And just how many days does he think he wants to warn me in to prepare myself to see the love my life. The one who I grieved over in so many years. 3 days. I have 3 days. Or I had 3 days. He’s coming today. Today.
I look outside through the window and see an unfamiliar car driving up in the driveway. I watch as the car parks and a tall defined man walks out. I know it’s him. I can recognize him anywhere. I watch how he slowly walks to the door and hear the bell ringing. ‘I’ll open Umma’ was yelled from downstairs. I can hear him introducing himself to my family. He’s a friend from college apparently. I never knew that. I can hear my lovely wife walk up the stairs and I see her enter the bedroom. ‘Honey, there’s a handsome guy downstairs saying he’s a friend from college’ I look at her. I know I can’t hold back if I go down there. I will scream, cry and act like something I’ve never did in front of anyone beside HeeChul and KyuHyun. ‘I want HeeChul and KyuHyun here. Tell them who came. Tell them I need them’ I know she can see that I’m crying. I know she doesn’t understand, but she doesn’t ask and walks out. I can hear her on the phone. ‘SungMin isn’t acting like usually. Some guy from college called YunHo came and said he wanted to see SungMin. But he’s just crying and saying he wants you guys here’ Nothing else was said after that from this side. I listen as I hear her walk down the stairs and say to the children that they should go over so Aunty SooYoung and that she will join them soon. I know HeeChul blew up, when he heard his name. After he left me, his named was banned. Every time it was mentioned HeeChul would go crazy and smash things.
I look outside again and see HeeChul & KyuHyuns familiar car park and a fuming HeeChul running out of it.
‘WHERE IS HE? WHERE IS THAT BATARD TO YUNHO!?’ I saw, how my Sun ran out the house. ‘SO THERE ARE YOU! HOW DARE YOU!? HOW DARE YOU COMING HERE? AFTER WHAT YOU DID TO HIM? DO YOU KNOW HOW MANY YEARS IT TOOK HIM TO TALK TO SOMEONE ELSE THAN US!? DO YOU!? NO YOU DON’T BECAUSE YOU WEREN’T THERE, YOU FUCKING SON OF A BITCH! THEN YOU DARE COMING HERE, WHERE HE HAS HIS WIFE AND CHILDREN!’ I don’t want to listen anymore, I don’t want to. I don’t want to remember all the pain again. Not again. I don’t want to be alone like that again. Not feeling whole, because one took my heart and smashed it with all of his might. I don’t want to. No. no. no. nonononononononono. NO! I don’t want it, go away, go away.
‘If it weren’t because I know SungMin would despise me forever, I would kill you right here and now’ That low voice. That’s not HeeChul. That’s not how HeeChul talks. It feels more scary, more true, like he really would kill him. I never thought I would ever hear the ever so calm KyuHyun talk like that. ‘GET THE FUCK OUT NOW! DON’T YOU EVER DARE PUTTING A STEP INTO THIS HOUSE OR EVEN NEIGHBORHOOD EVER AGAIN, YOU COWARD OF A BASTARD! I regret ever thinking of you as one of my best friends. You backstabbed us all. Not only did you break SungMins heart, you didn’t even break it. You took it out, stabbed it, threw it on the ground jumping on it, before you ate it. That’s how much of a bastard you were. Do you know how worried I was? You were my best friend and you just suddenly disappeared, not even saying a word. And this I mean, if you ever come near any of us or any of our friends or family, I will personally take care of your death’ I never knew. How come I didn’t know? HeeChul was his best friend after all. He was as much hurt as I was, he just hid it. He tried to put on a strong front for me. I have the best friends in the world. I really do. How come I didn’t know that before?
I hear a motor start and a car drive away. I know that any minute HeeChul and KyuHyun will be in here. Holding me and let me cry. But I wont cry, because finally I can let him go. Finally I can begin to gather all the pieces of my heart together again. Finally I can love my wife like I should. Finally I’m free.
Okay, this is soooo fail! But I hope that at least someone likes it ^^ I had no idea who to put as his wife, so ended up with Sunny.. I hope it doesn't ruin it all.