The Homophobe loves a guy? Chp. 1
Title: The Homophobe loves a guy?
Length: 1/?
Pairing: G-Jay, G-Dragon/JaeBeom (Big Bang/2PM)
Author: TheBlobMaster ^^
Warning: Nothing except a little swearing. Nothing really ^^
How It All Started
It’s weird the way he can make me act, all giddy and womanly. Surely everybody in the Korean showbiz that Jay Park is NOT gay. I’m far from gay. Not even close to bisexual. So how come I only have to hear his voice, his voice in one of their songs, and feeling a need to giggle like a school girl? It makes me resent him, because he took away my manliness. I think I’ve seen everything that involves the man, heard, read everything. I’m even in several of his fan clubs. You probably wonder who it is I’m talking about, or maybe you already know. You probably also thinks, how did Jay Park the man who resents anything related to gayness, fall for a guy. Or maybe not? You knew all along?
Anyway, it started when JunSu one day said he wanted to introduce some friends to me. Well, he technically didn’t say it to me. Taec did, since I didn’t understand much Hangul at the time. We followed JunSu to the café we were supposed to meet his friends and there he was. I was stunned, I literally stopped dead in my tracks. The others were already over to introduce themselves. I knew he was looking at me, waiting for me to introduce myself, but I just couldn’t move. That was until Taec came and pulled me over, he puffed me in the side indicating that I should introduce myself. ‘J-Jay Park here’ it came out as a whisper and I was looking down not wanting to meet the other boys eyes. I could feel his stare on me, it made me blush and shiver with a newfound excitement. I heard someone say something I didn’t really get, before Taec chose to translate it for me. ‘you have to look up to know who’s who, don’t you?’, I raised my gaze a little. Trying to the hardest not to blush, when I saw him starring with a wide smile at me. The other one introduced him self first with a soft smile, his eyes disappearing in the process. ‘I’m Dong YoungBae, but call me YB’ I looked at him and smiled a wide smile. He said it in English, I could understand it, even though the heavy accent was there. I looked back at him, he still stood there smiling that wide beautiful smile. ‘and I’m Kwon JiYong, also know as G-Dragon or GD’. I starred at him, he too introduced himself in English, though the accent was still thick it was lesser than YBs. He’s just to beautiful.
Well, that’s how it all started. We were all still trainees at the time. We all became friends quickly and YB & me started working out together once in a while. Though I would always start out shy, when GD was near. The first 5 times we met up afterwards, my mouth was shut most of the time. Mainly because I didn’t understand much of what was being said, but also because I would get so nervous that I would say anything that would displease GD. Oh god, it sounds like I was his servant or slave. But I got used to it soon after and started being myself. The dorky, I want to be manly me and GD liked it. He laughed along with the others. Smiled afterwards. Though it was like this, we never talked alone or met up alone. If the others left the room for a little while and we were the only ones left. You could cut yourself on the silence, but as soon as the others came back, we were all smiles and laughs.
We saw them debut, with smiles on our faces as we continued to practice as hard as we could. We saw them trying hard, trying to break through. It was hard, but then came Lies, the song that was supposed to be GDs solo. Man, you have no idea how much I looked forward to that. Then they decided to do it as a group. They became big so fast, I didn’t even see it coming. We still met up sometimes, not as often though. We watched again with smiles on our faces in 2 years their success, that just wouldn’t stop growing. Of course GD is with them, what can we expect. No, not only GD. They all are really talented and they match really good as a group. GD and YB has always been close, not that I’m jealous or anything, but even for their members, we could see it was hard to come into their little world. I’ve known them sometime now, both of them. But it’s kinda impossible to break their bubble. They know each other like no other. It’s hard for the other members, since they sometimes communicate without words. It’s hard for everyone around them. Their friendship is the closet and strongest I’ve ever seen. It’s scares the shit out of me. Really it does.
Then at some point our documentary came out and we became semi known. It was weird, they called after the 4th episode and told us what they thought about it. It wasn’t real. Then 2AM debuted and we again stood with smiles on our faces and practiced for our own debut a few months away at the time. I remember when I was told, that I would be the leader in the band. My brain just didn’t work at the time, I panicked, not that I showed it to anyone. But I thought to myself that, how I’m I going to control 6 guys? I’m not mature enough, I’m not strong enough, I don’t have the skills, I’m just plain not good enough for the job. Taec would be so much better at the job. I didn’t understand their decision.
I didn’t know what to do with myself, so I called the first person, that came to my mind. He answered the call after a few rings. ‘Jay? Why are you calling?’, though normally I would’ve blushed furiously, I was to freaked out to do anything about it. ‘J-ji, they chose me, what I’m I going to do? What should I do? Please help me, please!’ He asked where I was and ten minutes later, he was there. I was sitting in the park on a bench, my head in my hands. ‘Jay, tell me what it is’, he laid his hand on my shoulder, massaging it a little. I looked at him, with wide eyes. Panic evident in them. ‘I’m going to be the leader. ME! How I’m I going to make it? Why? - why did they pick me?’ He looked at me, astonished by that was the reason why I was so upset. I’m just surprised he understood what I said. The panic made my hangul even worse. ‘Look Jay, I’m sure there’s a reason why they picked you. You’re hardworking. I’m sure they know what they’re doing. Don’t worry everything is going to be alright.’ He gave my shoulder a squeeze, smiling reassuring to me. ‘Argh, I know, I know. But still.. Taec would’ve fitted the role better. Why not Nickhun? He’s calm, patient and hardworking. I’m only hardworking and the oldest. I’m just not fit for the job.’ I rose from the bench and started to pace back and forth. ‘Look, Jay. I know how you feel. I also freaked out, when I was pointed as the leader, though I wasn’t surprised. I realize now, that I’m really happy I was chosen to be the leader. It’s something to be proud of. Because, the leader is the one everybody trust and follows. Well, most of the time they do.’ I stopped and starred at him, that wide smile I love in it’s place. I couldn’t help, but smile back. ‘Thanks, Ji. I’m sorry for calling you out so suddenly. I don’t even know why I called you. You’re busy, I shouldn’t disturb you.’ I sat down again, looking at the ground. Suddenly I was reminded of my love for him. ‘No problem, Jay. Wasn’t doing anything, anyway. One thing though, when did you start calling me Ji instead of GD?’ ‘I honestly don’t know, it just came out, when I called you’ I shrugged. ‘Hope you don’t mind?’ ‘Nope, I like it. That’s what Bae calls me’ Great, it’s what his we’re-stuck- at-the-hip best friend calls him. I like YB, I really do. We kinda connect at some weird point, but I’m still jealous of his friendship with Ji. ‘Hey, what about some Ice cream?’, his question took me out from my thoughts. A big smile on my face as I nod. The awkwardness between us now gone, we went for Ice Cream.
That’s how it started. Our weird friendship. We’re not like Ji and YB, not that we ever could be, but when we’re frustrated about something, we call each other. Mostly it’s about how annoying the members are. Except YB on Jis’ side. Well, there was this one time. Under YBs solo activities where Ji called. He missed his best friend. I could’ve strangled YB there. Mostly because he hurt Ji, but also because he meant so much to Ji. You can’t hear I’m jealous at all, right? Well, it was also because.. When we debuted his songs were there and we didn’t get much success. Probably not his fault, but still. It hurts. I still have his cd, though. It’s good, man. Hot is freakin’ hot.
There’s only two people, who knows about my crush on Ji. Taec and Nickhun, Khun found out because Taec was such a loudmouth and yelled ‘YOU LIKE GD?’, when I told him. Khun happened to be entering the room at the time. So those two are the ones I talk to, when I’m frustrated about something to do with Ji or YB, mostly because of jealousness.
Khun always looks at me with this worried face and start muttering soothing words in English and Thai. Sometimes I feel like a little kid and he’s my mother. Taec mostly just listen and then try to lighten the mood with lame jokes. It always ends with us three rolling around on the ground laughing like mad. JunHo and WooYoung always comes in worried if we’re on drugs or something. Mostly we stop laughing, look at them, then at each other and breakdown laughing again. They’ll roll their eyes at us and walk away. Saying stuff like ‘stupid Hyungs’. We’ll just roll around more laughing at their reaction. They should’ve learned it by now.. They really should.
Okay, so this should be the first chapter.. I know it's not really exciting, but the next should be ^^
Length: 1/?
Pairing: G-Jay, G-Dragon/JaeBeom (Big Bang/2PM)
Author: TheBlobMaster ^^
Warning: Nothing except a little swearing. Nothing really ^^
How It All Started
It’s weird the way he can make me act, all giddy and womanly. Surely everybody in the Korean showbiz that Jay Park is NOT gay. I’m far from gay. Not even close to bisexual. So how come I only have to hear his voice, his voice in one of their songs, and feeling a need to giggle like a school girl? It makes me resent him, because he took away my manliness. I think I’ve seen everything that involves the man, heard, read everything. I’m even in several of his fan clubs. You probably wonder who it is I’m talking about, or maybe you already know. You probably also thinks, how did Jay Park the man who resents anything related to gayness, fall for a guy. Or maybe not? You knew all along?
Anyway, it started when JunSu one day said he wanted to introduce some friends to me. Well, he technically didn’t say it to me. Taec did, since I didn’t understand much Hangul at the time. We followed JunSu to the café we were supposed to meet his friends and there he was. I was stunned, I literally stopped dead in my tracks. The others were already over to introduce themselves. I knew he was looking at me, waiting for me to introduce myself, but I just couldn’t move. That was until Taec came and pulled me over, he puffed me in the side indicating that I should introduce myself. ‘J-Jay Park here’ it came out as a whisper and I was looking down not wanting to meet the other boys eyes. I could feel his stare on me, it made me blush and shiver with a newfound excitement. I heard someone say something I didn’t really get, before Taec chose to translate it for me. ‘you have to look up to know who’s who, don’t you?’, I raised my gaze a little. Trying to the hardest not to blush, when I saw him starring with a wide smile at me. The other one introduced him self first with a soft smile, his eyes disappearing in the process. ‘I’m Dong YoungBae, but call me YB’ I looked at him and smiled a wide smile. He said it in English, I could understand it, even though the heavy accent was there. I looked back at him, he still stood there smiling that wide beautiful smile. ‘and I’m Kwon JiYong, also know as G-Dragon or GD’. I starred at him, he too introduced himself in English, though the accent was still thick it was lesser than YBs. He’s just to beautiful.
Well, that’s how it all started. We were all still trainees at the time. We all became friends quickly and YB & me started working out together once in a while. Though I would always start out shy, when GD was near. The first 5 times we met up afterwards, my mouth was shut most of the time. Mainly because I didn’t understand much of what was being said, but also because I would get so nervous that I would say anything that would displease GD. Oh god, it sounds like I was his servant or slave. But I got used to it soon after and started being myself. The dorky, I want to be manly me and GD liked it. He laughed along with the others. Smiled afterwards. Though it was like this, we never talked alone or met up alone. If the others left the room for a little while and we were the only ones left. You could cut yourself on the silence, but as soon as the others came back, we were all smiles and laughs.
We saw them debut, with smiles on our faces as we continued to practice as hard as we could. We saw them trying hard, trying to break through. It was hard, but then came Lies, the song that was supposed to be GDs solo. Man, you have no idea how much I looked forward to that. Then they decided to do it as a group. They became big so fast, I didn’t even see it coming. We still met up sometimes, not as often though. We watched again with smiles on our faces in 2 years their success, that just wouldn’t stop growing. Of course GD is with them, what can we expect. No, not only GD. They all are really talented and they match really good as a group. GD and YB has always been close, not that I’m jealous or anything, but even for their members, we could see it was hard to come into their little world. I’ve known them sometime now, both of them. But it’s kinda impossible to break their bubble. They know each other like no other. It’s hard for the other members, since they sometimes communicate without words. It’s hard for everyone around them. Their friendship is the closet and strongest I’ve ever seen. It’s scares the shit out of me. Really it does.
Then at some point our documentary came out and we became semi known. It was weird, they called after the 4th episode and told us what they thought about it. It wasn’t real. Then 2AM debuted and we again stood with smiles on our faces and practiced for our own debut a few months away at the time. I remember when I was told, that I would be the leader in the band. My brain just didn’t work at the time, I panicked, not that I showed it to anyone. But I thought to myself that, how I’m I going to control 6 guys? I’m not mature enough, I’m not strong enough, I don’t have the skills, I’m just plain not good enough for the job. Taec would be so much better at the job. I didn’t understand their decision.
I didn’t know what to do with myself, so I called the first person, that came to my mind. He answered the call after a few rings. ‘Jay? Why are you calling?’, though normally I would’ve blushed furiously, I was to freaked out to do anything about it. ‘J-ji, they chose me, what I’m I going to do? What should I do? Please help me, please!’ He asked where I was and ten minutes later, he was there. I was sitting in the park on a bench, my head in my hands. ‘Jay, tell me what it is’, he laid his hand on my shoulder, massaging it a little. I looked at him, with wide eyes. Panic evident in them. ‘I’m going to be the leader. ME! How I’m I going to make it? Why? - why did they pick me?’ He looked at me, astonished by that was the reason why I was so upset. I’m just surprised he understood what I said. The panic made my hangul even worse. ‘Look Jay, I’m sure there’s a reason why they picked you. You’re hardworking. I’m sure they know what they’re doing. Don’t worry everything is going to be alright.’ He gave my shoulder a squeeze, smiling reassuring to me. ‘Argh, I know, I know. But still.. Taec would’ve fitted the role better. Why not Nickhun? He’s calm, patient and hardworking. I’m only hardworking and the oldest. I’m just not fit for the job.’ I rose from the bench and started to pace back and forth. ‘Look, Jay. I know how you feel. I also freaked out, when I was pointed as the leader, though I wasn’t surprised. I realize now, that I’m really happy I was chosen to be the leader. It’s something to be proud of. Because, the leader is the one everybody trust and follows. Well, most of the time they do.’ I stopped and starred at him, that wide smile I love in it’s place. I couldn’t help, but smile back. ‘Thanks, Ji. I’m sorry for calling you out so suddenly. I don’t even know why I called you. You’re busy, I shouldn’t disturb you.’ I sat down again, looking at the ground. Suddenly I was reminded of my love for him. ‘No problem, Jay. Wasn’t doing anything, anyway. One thing though, when did you start calling me Ji instead of GD?’ ‘I honestly don’t know, it just came out, when I called you’ I shrugged. ‘Hope you don’t mind?’ ‘Nope, I like it. That’s what Bae calls me’ Great, it’s what his we’re-stuck- at-the-hip best friend calls him. I like YB, I really do. We kinda connect at some weird point, but I’m still jealous of his friendship with Ji. ‘Hey, what about some Ice cream?’, his question took me out from my thoughts. A big smile on my face as I nod. The awkwardness between us now gone, we went for Ice Cream.
That’s how it started. Our weird friendship. We’re not like Ji and YB, not that we ever could be, but when we’re frustrated about something, we call each other. Mostly it’s about how annoying the members are. Except YB on Jis’ side. Well, there was this one time. Under YBs solo activities where Ji called. He missed his best friend. I could’ve strangled YB there. Mostly because he hurt Ji, but also because he meant so much to Ji. You can’t hear I’m jealous at all, right? Well, it was also because.. When we debuted his songs were there and we didn’t get much success. Probably not his fault, but still. It hurts. I still have his cd, though. It’s good, man. Hot is freakin’ hot.
There’s only two people, who knows about my crush on Ji. Taec and Nickhun, Khun found out because Taec was such a loudmouth and yelled ‘YOU LIKE GD?’, when I told him. Khun happened to be entering the room at the time. So those two are the ones I talk to, when I’m frustrated about something to do with Ji or YB, mostly because of jealousness.
Khun always looks at me with this worried face and start muttering soothing words in English and Thai. Sometimes I feel like a little kid and he’s my mother. Taec mostly just listen and then try to lighten the mood with lame jokes. It always ends with us three rolling around on the ground laughing like mad. JunHo and WooYoung always comes in worried if we’re on drugs or something. Mostly we stop laughing, look at them, then at each other and breakdown laughing again. They’ll roll their eyes at us and walk away. Saying stuff like ‘stupid Hyungs’. We’ll just roll around more laughing at their reaction. They should’ve learned it by now.. They really should.
Okay, so this should be the first chapter.. I know it's not really exciting, but the next should be ^^