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[theblackhearts]

so i'm at the school because mrs.walsh stood me up and i missed the bus. okay now onto my post. Yesterday and today have been amazing just because of art 9th period! haha i love it and its the only thing that makes me laugh and really happy lately. well other than a few people i'm doing decent, making it by. Have you ever had the feeling where all you want is to have someone? Or to just be happy with the perfect guy (in you're eyes)? To have other girls stare and hate you when you're walking down the hallway with him because you have the perfect relationship with the perfect guy? Yeah thats how i feel right now, but for some reason everytime i start to like a guy, i either never persue him, find out he likes/is dating someone, or feel to intimidated to talk to him. Its hard but not that hard to find someone or get the one you want...i mean if half the girl population out there can do it why can't i? I hate being so self conscious but i am and i can't help it.
I like guys i know i can't have and i do it way too often. WHy can't i find whati'm looking for? Sorry about the ranting i just need opinions!