Fic: Smoldering Ruins - 14/15
Title: Smoldering Ruins - 14/15
Genre: Drama / Angst / Fluff
Rating: R
Word Count: 18885
Pairing: Puck/Kurt
Summary: The past is a powerful entity, even as the future becomes brighter, better and stronger. Part Three of The Rebuilding Series, Following The System and Disaster. Previous chapters found here.
“Dad, I need you to bring Beth,” Kurt said, clutching the phone to his ear. He knew that his father would panic the moment that he told him what had happened and come anyway, but he had to ask and be calm. He had to keep control even though he felt he was losing it; keeping in control would keep everything together as it always had. “I’ll pay for the tickets for you three and everything. I just really, really need my family here. Please.”
“What happened?”
Kurt knew there was no way to tell his father what had happened without panicking him, but he tried to lay it on gently. “Dad,” he said softly, focusing his energy on keeping things calm. “Dad, Puck got himself shot. I’m at the hospital up by our place and I really, really need you to bring Beth. Puck’s fine and everything but I’m just…exhausted. The guy who raped Puck, he’s…he’s dead.”
“Oh God, Kurt.”
He could hear his father yelling and cursing under his breath but he was so tired that he couldn’t think enough to process the words. “I know that it’s a hassle for you and Carole and I hate to ask, but…”
“We’ll be there, Kurt.”
“Thank you,” he whispered. “I just need my baby girl so badly right now. This has been a mess.”
Kurt quickly got off the phone with his father and leaned back against the chair. He closed his eyes and tried to relax. His life was so completely upside down sometimes. He started out as that awkward gay kid who was made fun of and tormented most of his life and then he fell in love with Puck, who was delicate and fragile underneath a tough exterior and who had been raped brutally and needed someone. Then they ended up raising the child he had at sixteen together, because of her mother’s tragic death. Now there was this. Their life was so insane. It made him a little crazy but he kept hanging on.
He returned to the other man’s hospital room the moment that he could. Puck gave him a weary but gentle smile and he almost started sobbing. “What’s wrong Kurt?” Puck asked with an exhausted expression.
“This is just a little hard to handle on top of all the crazy things we’ve endured,” Kurt admitted, shaking his head a little bit and grabbing Puck’s hand. Yes, he was upset at this whole situation but he was thankful right now just to have his future husband at his side and his baby girl on the way. He was so damned overwhelmed he wanted to be sick.
“We have been through a hell of a lot,” Puck mumbled wistfully.
“You can say that again.”
“It doesn’t matter anymore,” Puck said, his voice pretty strong for someone lying in a hospital bed looking ragged. “The past is gone and the only thing that’s left for us is our future with our daughter.”
Kurt shook his head and leaned down, pressing his lips to Puck’s. “I’m in love with an idiot,” he said fondly, keeping his eyes locked on the other man’s. He was so in love with Puck that it hurt sometimes. He knew that he was in love with him for years but still the revelation came back time and time again to shock the hell out of him. Noah Puckerman was the love of his life and nothing mattered except the future they shared with their daughter. It was so true.
“I’m your favorite idiot,” Puck said against Kurt’s lips.
Kurt rolled his eyes but didn’t move. His forehead still pressed to Puck’s, he just was so thankful that everything was alright. “Dad and Carole are bringing Beth,” he said softly. “I know it’s sudden but I really, really want my daughter back here and I’m sure you do too.”
Puck nodded, obviously very happy to hear that. “Good, I need my baby girl,” he whispered, relieved. Moments later, his eyes began to darken some. “Kurt, you know that I’m really, really sorry right? I wasn’t thinking about you and Beth and I was just stupid. I know that I’m…I know that I can be stupid but you guys are my whole world.”
“True me, we know,” he said. “I swear though, if you ever get yourself shot again I will kill you.”
“Deal,” Puck responded nodding.
“Cause you see, I’ve been in love with this idiot since our first kiss in the park all those years ago,” Kurt admitted. He paused for a moment, just staring in Puck’s eyes. “Why did you do it, Noah?”
Puck shook his head a little bit. “I don’t really know,” he said. “Well, that’s actually not at all true. I know why. It’s just frustrating. I have been running from the memories of that guy for years. I have always had him in the back of my head, even after the nightmares I had stopped. He was always there and always holding me back. I realized that I could face my demons, so to speak, head-on and it sort of became an obsession. I know that you probably can’t understand Kurt.”
“I do,” Kurt said, rubbing the back of his hand. “I saw the way that it tortured you, remember. I’ve been around since then.”
Puck nodded. “I just had to deal with it,” he said. “I know it was stupid.”
“It was,” Kurt said, looking down at their hands. “Still, I think that if I were in your shoes, I would have done the same thing.”
“Really?”
Kurt nodded.
“I promise you,” Puck said, leaning back and looking up at the ceiling, “I promise that we are going to have an absolutely normal, domestic, typical life after this. We’ve been through too much shit too young Kurt. I want to be an old dude with kids now.”
“Kids?” Kurt asked, raising an eyebrow.
“Well we are sort of getting married soon. You know that our second child is going to come sooner or later. We can’t have Beth being a spoiled only child.”
“You get out of the hospital first,” Kurt chided. “Then we’ll think about marriage and kids.”
Puck smiled dreamily. “I want to get married really soon, Kurt,” he said. “We really have nothing to wait for and it’ll be the start of the domestic, no problem, no fear kind of thing. We should even probably do it before we get back to our normal lives.”
Genre: Drama / Angst / Fluff
Rating: R
Word Count: 18885
Pairing: Puck/Kurt
Summary: The past is a powerful entity, even as the future becomes brighter, better and stronger. Part Three of The Rebuilding Series, Following The System and Disaster. Previous chapters found here.
“Dad, I need you to bring Beth,” Kurt said, clutching the phone to his ear. He knew that his father would panic the moment that he told him what had happened and come anyway, but he had to ask and be calm. He had to keep control even though he felt he was losing it; keeping in control would keep everything together as it always had. “I’ll pay for the tickets for you three and everything. I just really, really need my family here. Please.”
“What happened?”
Kurt knew there was no way to tell his father what had happened without panicking him, but he tried to lay it on gently. “Dad,” he said softly, focusing his energy on keeping things calm. “Dad, Puck got himself shot. I’m at the hospital up by our place and I really, really need you to bring Beth. Puck’s fine and everything but I’m just…exhausted. The guy who raped Puck, he’s…he’s dead.”
“Oh God, Kurt.”
He could hear his father yelling and cursing under his breath but he was so tired that he couldn’t think enough to process the words. “I know that it’s a hassle for you and Carole and I hate to ask, but…”
“We’ll be there, Kurt.”
“Thank you,” he whispered. “I just need my baby girl so badly right now. This has been a mess.”
Kurt quickly got off the phone with his father and leaned back against the chair. He closed his eyes and tried to relax. His life was so completely upside down sometimes. He started out as that awkward gay kid who was made fun of and tormented most of his life and then he fell in love with Puck, who was delicate and fragile underneath a tough exterior and who had been raped brutally and needed someone. Then they ended up raising the child he had at sixteen together, because of her mother’s tragic death. Now there was this. Their life was so insane. It made him a little crazy but he kept hanging on.
He returned to the other man’s hospital room the moment that he could. Puck gave him a weary but gentle smile and he almost started sobbing. “What’s wrong Kurt?” Puck asked with an exhausted expression.
“This is just a little hard to handle on top of all the crazy things we’ve endured,” Kurt admitted, shaking his head a little bit and grabbing Puck’s hand. Yes, he was upset at this whole situation but he was thankful right now just to have his future husband at his side and his baby girl on the way. He was so damned overwhelmed he wanted to be sick.
“We have been through a hell of a lot,” Puck mumbled wistfully.
“You can say that again.”
“It doesn’t matter anymore,” Puck said, his voice pretty strong for someone lying in a hospital bed looking ragged. “The past is gone and the only thing that’s left for us is our future with our daughter.”
Kurt shook his head and leaned down, pressing his lips to Puck’s. “I’m in love with an idiot,” he said fondly, keeping his eyes locked on the other man’s. He was so in love with Puck that it hurt sometimes. He knew that he was in love with him for years but still the revelation came back time and time again to shock the hell out of him. Noah Puckerman was the love of his life and nothing mattered except the future they shared with their daughter. It was so true.
“I’m your favorite idiot,” Puck said against Kurt’s lips.
Kurt rolled his eyes but didn’t move. His forehead still pressed to Puck’s, he just was so thankful that everything was alright. “Dad and Carole are bringing Beth,” he said softly. “I know it’s sudden but I really, really want my daughter back here and I’m sure you do too.”
Puck nodded, obviously very happy to hear that. “Good, I need my baby girl,” he whispered, relieved. Moments later, his eyes began to darken some. “Kurt, you know that I’m really, really sorry right? I wasn’t thinking about you and Beth and I was just stupid. I know that I’m…I know that I can be stupid but you guys are my whole world.”
“True me, we know,” he said. “I swear though, if you ever get yourself shot again I will kill you.”
“Deal,” Puck responded nodding.
“Cause you see, I’ve been in love with this idiot since our first kiss in the park all those years ago,” Kurt admitted. He paused for a moment, just staring in Puck’s eyes. “Why did you do it, Noah?”
Puck shook his head a little bit. “I don’t really know,” he said. “Well, that’s actually not at all true. I know why. It’s just frustrating. I have been running from the memories of that guy for years. I have always had him in the back of my head, even after the nightmares I had stopped. He was always there and always holding me back. I realized that I could face my demons, so to speak, head-on and it sort of became an obsession. I know that you probably can’t understand Kurt.”
“I do,” Kurt said, rubbing the back of his hand. “I saw the way that it tortured you, remember. I’ve been around since then.”
Puck nodded. “I just had to deal with it,” he said. “I know it was stupid.”
“It was,” Kurt said, looking down at their hands. “Still, I think that if I were in your shoes, I would have done the same thing.”
“Really?”
Kurt nodded.
“I promise you,” Puck said, leaning back and looking up at the ceiling, “I promise that we are going to have an absolutely normal, domestic, typical life after this. We’ve been through too much shit too young Kurt. I want to be an old dude with kids now.”
“Kids?” Kurt asked, raising an eyebrow.
“Well we are sort of getting married soon. You know that our second child is going to come sooner or later. We can’t have Beth being a spoiled only child.”
“You get out of the hospital first,” Kurt chided. “Then we’ll think about marriage and kids.”
Puck smiled dreamily. “I want to get married really soon, Kurt,” he said. “We really have nothing to wait for and it’ll be the start of the domestic, no problem, no fear kind of thing. We should even probably do it before we get back to our normal lives.”