Hmmm
There seems to be precious little traffic here anymore. That's fine. I just need to write. I don't think it matters if it is read!
So, yesterday I talked to my Mom on the phone. The day before was my birthday. Mom didn't call to wish me a happy, but that's not incredibly unusual for her, though a bit off. So, when I talked to her, I didn't mention my birthday---felt kind of odd you know----but hers is next week, and I am going out, so I told her I'd be out and bake a cake for her birthday. Now, I thought to myself, she will recall her only child's birthday and say something, but she didn't. She just commented "oh that would be nice". Now, my Mother is not known for her.....gregarious nature. Okay, she's downright selfish and self-centered. So, at first I was just hurt that she didn't even remember my birthday. THen, I talked to my son, who pointed out that it might not just be her basic selfish nature, but that she may really be getting that bad about memory. Now, that is really frightening. What if she forgets to turn the stove off, or something?? Just how forgetful can you be without endangering yourself or others? Or- is she, as usual, just so caught up in herself that she can't see beyond her own needs and imagined difficulties? SHe announced the last time I was there, that it was costing her too much to care for Dad, and she decided she was going to go up and bring him home. I informed her that no, she wasn't, and the staff wouldn't release him to her even if she was stupid enough to go and try it. That was an interesting discussion! So, I had a fierce headache all day yesterday worrying about all of this. Bottom line- I am the only one taking care of my parents, and I am tired.
So, yesterday I talked to my Mom on the phone. The day before was my birthday. Mom didn't call to wish me a happy, but that's not incredibly unusual for her, though a bit off. So, when I talked to her, I didn't mention my birthday---felt kind of odd you know----but hers is next week, and I am going out, so I told her I'd be out and bake a cake for her birthday. Now, I thought to myself, she will recall her only child's birthday and say something, but she didn't. She just commented "oh that would be nice". Now, my Mother is not known for her.....gregarious nature. Okay, she's downright selfish and self-centered. So, at first I was just hurt that she didn't even remember my birthday. THen, I talked to my son, who pointed out that it might not just be her basic selfish nature, but that she may really be getting that bad about memory. Now, that is really frightening. What if she forgets to turn the stove off, or something?? Just how forgetful can you be without endangering yourself or others? Or- is she, as usual, just so caught up in herself that she can't see beyond her own needs and imagined difficulties? SHe announced the last time I was there, that it was costing her too much to care for Dad, and she decided she was going to go up and bring him home. I informed her that no, she wasn't, and the staff wouldn't release him to her even if she was stupid enough to go and try it. That was an interesting discussion! So, I had a fierce headache all day yesterday worrying about all of this. Bottom line- I am the only one taking care of my parents, and I am tired.