I don't hate my life. I hate that the shit that happens at SU happens. I have to go here- I don't have any other options financially right now. My parents couldn't afford the better conservatory, and that's fine. I think I can bitch occasionally too, because I'm taking a risk and attempting to do something about it.
It's not the school that I hate, and I expected people to be fake upon coming here. I just never expected to not be able to expect my closer friends to keep their mouths shut and decide for themselves what information about me and my personal life they deem appropriate enough to talk about. I'm tired of hearing my friends talked about, and other people agreeing with or adding onto that persons complaints just to get some sort of say in, or what have you.
But thats not important, i guess. What I hate most is the schools disorganization and the fact that I have friends within the context of SU and within the context of actual friendship. My standards upon which I form friendships here is noticably lower than how I would form them outside of school; it has to be.
I don't bitch a lot, or to just anyone...I talk about transferring, and thats as far as it usually goes. But you know what- if I want to bitch, I'm fully entitled to.
" everyone takes life so seriously, instead of enjoying it. you've only got one life. Stop being so negative. enjoy your life, and if your not happy....then change it"
If life were that black and white, than that'd be absolutely right. But it's not. You have to take life "so seriously" at certain points, because a] thats what adults [or those on their ways there] do and b] because it enables you to be truly ahppy and in the right place later in life.
I don't have any hostility towards you for writing this, nor should you care- but you can't reduce everyones stresses and problems down to "if you don't like it, change it." Because I can't change my parents finances, my own, my mothers frail health, the curriculum, my voice teachers being present consistently, or having personal standards that shouldnt have to flex.
I never expected you to. All your reasons are entirely valid...I guess we both just have 2 completely different ways of looking at life. And thats ok. Thats what makes us so wonderfully different. :) Iknow yoru situation, and you have every right to complain.
It's not the school that I hate, and I expected people to be fake upon coming here. I just never expected to not be able to expect my closer friends to keep their mouths shut and decide for themselves what information about me and my personal life they deem appropriate enough to talk about. I'm tired of hearing my friends talked about, and other people agreeing with or adding onto that persons complaints just to get some sort of say in, or what have you.
But thats not important, i guess. What I hate most is the schools disorganization and the fact that I have friends within the context of SU and within the context of actual friendship. My standards upon which I form friendships here is noticably lower than how I would form them outside of school; it has to be.
I don't bitch a lot, or to just anyone...I talk about transferring, and thats as far as it usually goes. But you know what- if I want to bitch, I'm fully entitled to.
" everyone takes life so seriously, instead of enjoying it.
you've only got one life. Stop being so negative. enjoy your life, and if your not happy....then change it"
If life were that black and white, than that'd be absolutely right. But it's not. You have to take life "so seriously" at certain points, because a] thats what adults [or those on their ways there] do and b] because it enables you to be truly ahppy and in the right place later in life.
I don't have any hostility towards you for writing this, nor should you care- but you can't reduce everyones stresses and problems down to "if you don't like it, change it." Because I can't change my parents finances, my own, my mothers frail health, the curriculum, my voice teachers being present consistently, or having personal standards that shouldnt have to flex.
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We jsut talekd about this in the car. :)
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