While waiting for my shower water to get hot, I imagined killing myself and then writing 'forgive me' on the wall of the shower in my blood. What's wrong with me?
Forgive me for stating the obvious...mayamahalJanuary 21 2010, 02:45:47 UTC
But that sounds like depression. Post-partum, even. Or maybe I'm just terrified but what you've just written and I'm looking for a treatable reason. @_@
Re: Forgive me for stating the obvious...the_uncandyJanuary 22 2010, 13:15:16 UTC
Sometimes I feel like I don't want her. Sometimes I want to leave her here with Jayson and just take off. I know what this is, but I don't have insurance and I don't have medicaid, and I pretty much have nowhere to turn. Living here is making it harder because my parenting is being tested by my in-law's, my ability to do what I want when I want is limited - to the point that I feel seventeen again - and my marriage is crumbling. Then there's the dog that shits in my room and eats my cat's shit, the cat that makes my cats scream and his, the brother-in-law who thinks the world revolves around him and that us living here is just a convenient way to get better electronics.. and a husband that isn't with me in the 'let's gtfo of here asap.'
Re: Forgive me for stating the obvious...the_uncandyJanuary 27 2010, 13:09:55 UTC
Yeah. Finances led us here, thinking we'd be able to take some time and pay off some things. Then they pulled the rug out from under us. They're selling this house and moving, so we need to have a place by May. Would never have left our apartment if we knew this was coming.
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