Mellow and tired
It's been a rollercoaster of emotions lately. I'm trying to address some recurring concerns and put some of the issues I expressed last time to bed. We'll start with some basic stuff. I went ahead and read some of Miaka's posts. She survived W&MU which is good. A long time ago I recall being afraid she would be part of the high suicide statistics from that college. She graduated from the same school as my baby brother, though I don't beleive they ever communicated with each other. She seems to have a good job, close friends and a healthy (sort of) hobby. I'm not bashing the hobby just larping usually involves quit a bit of bruises. Plus my expereicne with that jackass Talon didn't help me view the activity very favorably. I went ahead and dropped a small comment on Miaka's LJ. I have no idea what to expect, if anything. I don't know what if anything I want from the gal. Maybe just a straight answer. I just get the feeling we should bury the hatchet before the 10-year reunion you know? So I guess I'm glad she's doing ok and not dead like we all thought she'd be.
I recently applied for a new PFCU loan so I could finally kill off the last of the "evil" debt. It resulted in a refinancing of my previous loan which got my dad's name off the stupid thing. I've been waiting for the check which I found out today hadn't been mailed out yet. So now it is being fedex'd. Heantai recently overspent again and of course is reacting badly to the news. The problem is that he reacts with anger at the situation as though he's not supposed to have fun because fun costs money. What i need him to do is react more along the lines of being aware of what money is there before every purchase. And to be less of an impulse buyer. Don't get me wrong he's been very good at holding himself back from getting an awesome game and I appreciate it. He could be a lot worse. I just want him to be a little better. But both of us stink when it comes to money so we're both at fault.
I recently got a bonus and promptly spent it. I very much like the new George Foreman grill so I don't regret the purchase so much as the money that no longer sits snuggly in my checking account. :P
I'm rambling a lot today, both here and in my head. I feel tired because I worked a total of 13 hours yesterday between the 2 jobs. Yep I'm working two jobs again. I want this debt to go away faster and the only way that happens is by throwing more money at it. I'm cranky because I'm stuck at work with a co-worker I abhore and who will probably be the reason I finally quit this job. I have sooo much work to do at home and I'm working on coming to full terms with the realization that I've completly lost faith in their being something out there beyond death. Yep, congratulate me, the naive little christian girl has become an aetheist. Now I just need to remember how to spell the word. It's oddly not been a big deal. I wont bore you with details on how this came to pass, in fact I feel exhausted just thinking about going into it. Mom took it fairly well. Screw dad and whatever he might think.
Ok I can't think of anything else worthwhile to write down. SO I'll post again later when I'm feeling better.
I recently applied for a new PFCU loan so I could finally kill off the last of the "evil" debt. It resulted in a refinancing of my previous loan which got my dad's name off the stupid thing. I've been waiting for the check which I found out today hadn't been mailed out yet. So now it is being fedex'd. Heantai recently overspent again and of course is reacting badly to the news. The problem is that he reacts with anger at the situation as though he's not supposed to have fun because fun costs money. What i need him to do is react more along the lines of being aware of what money is there before every purchase. And to be less of an impulse buyer. Don't get me wrong he's been very good at holding himself back from getting an awesome game and I appreciate it. He could be a lot worse. I just want him to be a little better. But both of us stink when it comes to money so we're both at fault.
I recently got a bonus and promptly spent it. I very much like the new George Foreman grill so I don't regret the purchase so much as the money that no longer sits snuggly in my checking account. :P
I'm rambling a lot today, both here and in my head. I feel tired because I worked a total of 13 hours yesterday between the 2 jobs. Yep I'm working two jobs again. I want this debt to go away faster and the only way that happens is by throwing more money at it. I'm cranky because I'm stuck at work with a co-worker I abhore and who will probably be the reason I finally quit this job. I have sooo much work to do at home and I'm working on coming to full terms with the realization that I've completly lost faith in their being something out there beyond death. Yep, congratulate me, the naive little christian girl has become an aetheist. Now I just need to remember how to spell the word. It's oddly not been a big deal. I wont bore you with details on how this came to pass, in fact I feel exhausted just thinking about going into it. Mom took it fairly well. Screw dad and whatever he might think.
Ok I can't think of anything else worthwhile to write down. SO I'll post again later when I'm feeling better.