it's now or never.
well after much drama, crying, anger, and tension... i think (&hope) everything will be a little more normal and perhaps a little better than that. it was a good talk and a whole hell of a lot easier to talk to someone when they're sober (surprise). he's the guy i know when he's sober, and thats who i love. i think it finally dawned on him that if he doesn't clean up his act now, then i'm gone. and yes sadly i've been put in this situation before and i really dont think im asking too much when i say hey dont get drunk a few nights a week. hopefully he'll prove me wrong and change this time around. I have a good feeling but im trying to not get my hopes up too high.
i try to see the best in people and sometimes its a bad thing because it can end up hurting me when i don't see the negative that surrounds the good traits.
Well, i'll wait till you listen
I wont say a word
to follow your instincts
just never worked for me
you're silent but strong,
and you're noticing nothing again
Now I'm lying on the table
with everything you said
keep that in mind the way that it felt
when the most I could do was to just blame myself
and I know you know, everything
I know you didn't mean it
So, we're talking forever and you almost feel better
but, betters no excuse for tonight
you see, it's never bad enough
to just leave or give up
but, its never good enough to feel right
Now I'm lying on the table
with everything you said
it will all catch up eventually
well, it caught up and honestly
the weight of my decisions
were impossible to hold
but they were never yours