NEVER TRY, NEVER FAIL
Now I realize that this is like the third post since I said I wasn't gonna post either ever again or for a while. I realize i am a whiny bitch. Regardless of what anyone says, I feel like I will never amount to anything. I feel inferior, inadequate and worthless...all the time. No matter what I try to do, I fail. I tried living on my own and being independent, but was too much of a moron and sensitive to maintain the only decent job I have ever had. I tried at school but I was too lazy and stupid to finish. I try to lose weight and am too stupid and too lazy to find the discipline. I try to find a better job but I am too stupid, inadequate and lack the necessary skills for a good job. I’m still single and I’m not even going to go into too much detail of that one except that I am inferior, worthless, have nothing to offer, etc. In short, I am a failure. I try to better myself and always fail due to my own stupidity and mental blockades.
So, I have decided that I will not try for anything again. I mean, why should I? Anything I try I ultimately fail at so why keep trying? Never try, never fail. I bring this up to someone and they respond with, “If you never try, you’ll never win either.” I chuckle slightly and think to myself and say out loud, “I have never ever really won at anything or succeeded at anything I try, so not winning won’t be that big of a deal...I’m sadly enough, used to it.” Then I get the classic retort, “you’re acting like you’re eighty and you have your whole life ahead of you.” Just like I wrote in an earlier post; people don’t listen and they always have to respond to the positive instead of just listening and that is another reason I won’t burden anyone with my problems.
In the end, I have no one to blame but myself for my problems. I am the failure. No one made me that way, I just am that way. My parents tried to instill responsibility and discipline in me since I was born, but I guess I was too fucking stupid to absorb any of it. I am the failure. I am the fuck-up. Me. No one to blame but me. I try at anything and I will ultimately fail. So, I just won’t try anymore at anything and save myself the heartache of the never-ending and constant failure I have felt my whole life.
I won't get a good job. After getting shot down or not even called back from the hundreds of decent jobs I've applied for, I just won't try to look for a good job anymore. I won't get a nice woman to spend some time with, unless I pay for it, so I won't even bother with that anymore. I won't finish school. I'm just gonna accept my lot in life and keep living...that's all I can do. The end.
So, I have decided that I will not try for anything again. I mean, why should I? Anything I try I ultimately fail at so why keep trying? Never try, never fail. I bring this up to someone and they respond with, “If you never try, you’ll never win either.” I chuckle slightly and think to myself and say out loud, “I have never ever really won at anything or succeeded at anything I try, so not winning won’t be that big of a deal...I’m sadly enough, used to it.” Then I get the classic retort, “you’re acting like you’re eighty and you have your whole life ahead of you.” Just like I wrote in an earlier post; people don’t listen and they always have to respond to the positive instead of just listening and that is another reason I won’t burden anyone with my problems.
In the end, I have no one to blame but myself for my problems. I am the failure. No one made me that way, I just am that way. My parents tried to instill responsibility and discipline in me since I was born, but I guess I was too fucking stupid to absorb any of it. I am the failure. I am the fuck-up. Me. No one to blame but me. I try at anything and I will ultimately fail. So, I just won’t try anymore at anything and save myself the heartache of the never-ending and constant failure I have felt my whole life.
I won't get a good job. After getting shot down or not even called back from the hundreds of decent jobs I've applied for, I just won't try to look for a good job anymore. I won't get a nice woman to spend some time with, unless I pay for it, so I won't even bother with that anymore. I won't finish school. I'm just gonna accept my lot in life and keep living...that's all I can do. The end.