discontinue
Looks like it has been a fun run, but all things must come to an end, whether it be for a while or permanently. I have enjoyed my time here on Livejournal, posting funny stuff or depressing stuff and the sympathy I received from people's comments. Unfortunately, I have been feeling so low lately, that I won't even post it on Livejournal. I am feelings levels of torment and despair I haven't felt in a very long time and my mind is having trouble coping. So, I will discontinue my posts for an indeterminate amount of time and write stuff down in my paper journal. Within those pages lies the darkest and most tormented writings I have ever thought to compose. I am simply writing this to let people know why I will be away for a while. Just a reminder...I am not trying to get your sympathies or attention by writing this. I am writing this for piece of mind.
Me and the asshole have to get back to rebuilding my wall so I will never again be vulnerable and open to attack. I might be alone, but at least I won't be in pain. I have to go back to the old me. Cold, callous, untrusting, unloving, but strong, determined, less vulnerable to attack, and better at coping with the shit that gets us down.
Me and the asshole have to get back to rebuilding my wall so I will never again be vulnerable and open to attack. I might be alone, but at least I won't be in pain. I have to go back to the old me. Cold, callous, untrusting, unloving, but strong, determined, less vulnerable to attack, and better at coping with the shit that gets us down.