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I went to the car dealer today to see what kind of deal i could get. I could get absolutely nothing worth my fucking time and breath. The sales guy was really cool, but the deal they were offering was shit because of my credit. Apparently, when AMEX called me a month or so ago and told me if I didn't pay up, my credit would go down. I told them to fuck off because my credit was already fucked, but he said my credit score was actually really high. I paid it off to shut them up and i was left thinking i had good credit. Well, I don't. Fucking asshole liars! So, my parents agreed to co-sign with me, but as i sat and talked to my mom, it seems they may not be as willing. So, I have decided in order to avoid all the headaches, I will just not get a new car at all, wait till my car breaks down, and take MARTA from there. It's too much of a hassle to try to get a car so fuck it.
The closer I get to the big party tomorrow, the less and less I want to have it. I think I am suffering from social anxiety. I don't want to be around anyone. I just wanna be left alone and untouched. Since I am technically alone, and you know what i mean, I might as well live that way. Also, it seems like things that may have come to fruition have now spoiled. Unfortunately, the ball is in motion and it is too late to stop the juggernaut that this party will be. I am seriously considering just locking myself in my room and staying there the night. "oh boo-hoo. You're acting like such a bitch. Grow up, Eeyore!" Yeah, I have gotten that, but I don't give a fuck. It is just how I feel and if you don't like it, go take a flying fuck at a rolling donut. Fuck it, I'm out.
The closer I get to the big party tomorrow, the less and less I want to have it. I think I am suffering from social anxiety. I don't want to be around anyone. I just wanna be left alone and untouched. Since I am technically alone, and you know what i mean, I might as well live that way. Also, it seems like things that may have come to fruition have now spoiled. Unfortunately, the ball is in motion and it is too late to stop the juggernaut that this party will be. I am seriously considering just locking myself in my room and staying there the night. "oh boo-hoo. You're acting like such a bitch. Grow up, Eeyore!" Yeah, I have gotten that, but I don't give a fuck. It is just how I feel and if you don't like it, go take a flying fuck at a rolling donut. Fuck it, I'm out.