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it wasnt supposed to happen like this. thats what he said.
its the thing i thought id wanted for so long. keyword- thought.
i wish i could take it back. take back every feeling. every thought. every second i spent thinking about it.
its no different than the beginning.... its just the same. except more disappointing...because this time i was positive it would be so real.
real enough to where id have no questions and i wouldnt need any answers.
its when you think you have control, that you dont have any at all.
i cant believe i would even jeopardize what i already have. what a mistake. what a fool. what a tool.
its the thing i thought id wanted for so long. keyword- thought.
i wish i could take it back. take back every feeling. every thought. every second i spent thinking about it.
its no different than the beginning.... its just the same. except more disappointing...because this time i was positive it would be so real.
real enough to where id have no questions and i wouldnt need any answers.
its when you think you have control, that you dont have any at all.
i cant believe i would even jeopardize what i already have. what a mistake. what a fool. what a tool.