Trying to figure out what do do with my life

[the_old_inout]

Thinking about my life and what I want to do is confusing. and not fun. lately i find myself getting sad and anxious over random things. i think its a killer combination of not having what i want right in front of me or being able to know it, and having to do so much work to get there. I keep on having this fear that at the end of the day, even if I find this full-time job and even if I can buy all of these things that I want, that it won't be enough. I see myself talking like this and I can see that I am slowly relinquishing control over my life. You cannot let yourself lose control. You control your life. You need to internalize your locus of control. You need to believe your life can be better, and in order to do that you need to have faith. you need to believe in yourself.

Life is about hard work, Anita, and you need to face that. Money can't buy you happiness, but hard work can. Downsize on the material goods and upsize the mental labor. you'll find your happiness. The only thing holding me back is a lack of faith.You need to have faith and determination to get you through you day, and push you through your dark times, so you can have happiness. You need to know that at the end of the day, you can rely on yourself and start over. 1) hard work, 2) determination and 3) faith. those are it.

whats life all about?

1) faith
2) hard work
3) determination
4) knowing when to love
5) knowing when to laugh
6) knowing when to cry

i think that's just about it. i'll get through it.