Update with facts, emotions, you know the drill...
Because it’s been a while since I’ve really done one of these…
· Work has been good. I finished the Fall/Holiday catalog in the three weeks I was allotted, and now I’ve jumped right into the next piece of meat: The large Collection book for next year. Photo shoots are fun, but always so stressful. I made the stupid decision of wearing sandal flats with no support and by 11am, I was having massive lower back issues. That kinda…scared me.
· My weekends are much more busy than the weekdays. And…well, that needs to stop. I need some R&R.
· Excited about the Death Cab for Cutie concert on the 5th!
· My mom seems to think I might have sleep apnea because I’ve fallen asleep at a table full of people (after being on my feet for 11 hours at a shoot and having gulped down a glass & a half of red wine). I don’t think I’m denial, because I truly believe I don’t have it…but, oh well, who knows.
· My mom’s also told me that her eye doctor her warned her of potential cataract. Now THAT scares me. My eyes have been sensitive my entire life. I get all sorts of eye allergies to the sun, or when I put specific products on my face (even when not applied near my eyes!), or when there’s too much smog in the air. Losing sight isn’t the only fear I have in life…it’s losing control of ANY of my limbs. Right now, I can carefully monitor what each part of my body’s feeling. When I had intense arm/elbow pain a couple weeks ago, I was able to help it quickly and get it checked out. But, I’m afraid of age…of old age…and of losing my ability to monitor my body, because various parts of it shut down. That was also my father’s biggest fear, and he didn’t live to see 52. So, naturally, my mom worries that I fear old age so much because she remembers how my dad felt about the matter… but, I plan on going nowhere. Not until after I’ve joined the circus.
· I often wonder about slots in one’s heart and whether one has the ability or not to fill another’s two slots that require slightly different roles.
· I also often wonder about all the people who have come and gone in my life and what telling things I learned from various situations.
· I cannot wait to start “officially” teaching pole classes. Right now I have about 6 classes left to shadow and 1 more 3-hour training session to get through. Of the classes I’ve already shadowed (the intermediate girls), I find it very invigorating to be in front of the class giving instruction…even if it’s only the warm-up and strength building for now. Hopefully, by the end of July, I can get my official 1-1/2 hr classes going - a time slot to call my own. I know some friends anxiously await! I’m just about as impatient as I’ve ever been.
· Getting honked at by truckers at work every single day has finally become the most unnerving thing I’ve ever had to deal with. It just scares the damn Chi out of me.
· I think I’ve started cursing a lot less. Let the “lady-likeness” commence!
· In the words of the lovely Emiliana Torrini at her concert, “I love drama. I could eat it like cake!”
· Just overheard: “I don’t do Compton well.” I’m not sure anyone does? *laughs*
· I adore my cats…. Simba’s still grumpy and Lana’s incredibly feisty…but, they’re my little munchkins. Every time I stroke them I think, “You girls are lowering my blood pressure. Good girls!” lol
· Been so long since I’ve been to the zoo…want!
· Desperate for new music…