Dia Quatro
The good news:
Today I went out to fill in applications. Wild Oats is hiring and they seemed pretty cool about my app. Also, I got an interview at Bowdoin Country Store for tomorrow. Yeah, it's a little country store, but it's five minutes from home which is helpful in saving on gas money. Plus, it's only until August (hopefully). I just need work pretty much. So the day went well as far as completing my objective. I was unpacking some more - but then I took Benadryl for my sinuses and I've been asleep for the past three hours. Lame.
The bad news:
Living here is not getting easier. It's not feeling any better. The lonely feeling just keeps being there, especially now, when it's night and I'm completely alone. I really hate it. Even when I'm talking with my parents and stuff I still feel one hundred percent alone, like I'm in the wrong place and don't belong here. It just sucks and is hard. I have a feeling the lonely feeling won't go away.
Qualms is coming up Friday. Even knowing that I still feel depressed having all my stuff here in my room and knowing he doesn't live with me. I dunno, I don't like the idea of us only "visiting" and not actually being together.
My fine is due pretty soon, so I guess it's a good thing I have a job interview tomorrow.
My breath is garlicky. I wish I had some ice cream, bleah!
Today I went out to fill in applications. Wild Oats is hiring and they seemed pretty cool about my app. Also, I got an interview at Bowdoin Country Store for tomorrow. Yeah, it's a little country store, but it's five minutes from home which is helpful in saving on gas money. Plus, it's only until August (hopefully). I just need work pretty much. So the day went well as far as completing my objective. I was unpacking some more - but then I took Benadryl for my sinuses and I've been asleep for the past three hours. Lame.
The bad news:
Living here is not getting easier. It's not feeling any better. The lonely feeling just keeps being there, especially now, when it's night and I'm completely alone. I really hate it. Even when I'm talking with my parents and stuff I still feel one hundred percent alone, like I'm in the wrong place and don't belong here. It just sucks and is hard. I have a feeling the lonely feeling won't go away.
Qualms is coming up Friday. Even knowing that I still feel depressed having all my stuff here in my room and knowing he doesn't live with me. I dunno, I don't like the idea of us only "visiting" and not actually being together.
My fine is due pretty soon, so I guess it's a good thing I have a job interview tomorrow.
My breath is garlicky. I wish I had some ice cream, bleah!