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O hello ovewhelming piece of sometimes hell that has become my life. I am fully aware that the place I am in right now is ENTIRELY my own fault and I take full responsibility for my shittyness of life but that doesnt make it suck any less.
Its not even that it sucks because I have alot of good things going for me right now. I`m doing things that I enjoy and being with people that I enjoy being with, for the most part, and things should be good. its just that I constantly stretch myself to thin I always want to be going doing being everywhere at the same time with everyone but seriously that cannot happen. Its so hard to say no when I want to do everything because that will make me happy and everyone else happy but I just have so much dumb shit that has to get done so I can do what I want. Its hard to find the balance some days.
Between 6 classes, 3 jobs now (alumni house, babysitting alex and spencer and now possibly taking on another babysitting job to cover for one of my friends who left), + the record label + homework + boyfriend + Friends + Family + gym + breathing/sleep/food= abby sometimes just wants to die. Tomorrow i`m going to interview for this woman for babysitting and I`m going to tell her that I can really only commit to 1 MAYBE 2 days a week just because I have soooo much shit going on. If i take any days I will definately cut back on the alumni house and i`ve already told them that and they are fine with it.
Because of myself being stretched so thin I have been having to neglect things that can't be neglected. That I WON'T let be neglected because they don't deserve to be. I`m going to make this work because its what I want more then anything and he is what I want more then anything and if I need to give some stuff up to make this work I`m ready to do that. I hope I can figure this out before it comes to that and figure out a schedule to get everything done and make everyone including myself happy but we'll have to see.
Any suggestions for time management/ experiece from people who have been in this god awful place before?
btw I just got an e-mail from the student government saying that there are 6 open seats and 3 of them I could qualify for and get in no problem. I seriously considered this for about 20 seconds before I slapped myself and said HELL NO.
love always,
Ab
Its not even that it sucks because I have alot of good things going for me right now. I`m doing things that I enjoy and being with people that I enjoy being with, for the most part, and things should be good. its just that I constantly stretch myself to thin I always want to be going doing being everywhere at the same time with everyone but seriously that cannot happen. Its so hard to say no when I want to do everything because that will make me happy and everyone else happy but I just have so much dumb shit that has to get done so I can do what I want. Its hard to find the balance some days.
Between 6 classes, 3 jobs now (alumni house, babysitting alex and spencer and now possibly taking on another babysitting job to cover for one of my friends who left), + the record label + homework + boyfriend + Friends + Family + gym + breathing/sleep/food= abby sometimes just wants to die. Tomorrow i`m going to interview for this woman for babysitting and I`m going to tell her that I can really only commit to 1 MAYBE 2 days a week just because I have soooo much shit going on. If i take any days I will definately cut back on the alumni house and i`ve already told them that and they are fine with it.
Because of myself being stretched so thin I have been having to neglect things that can't be neglected. That I WON'T let be neglected because they don't deserve to be. I`m going to make this work because its what I want more then anything and he is what I want more then anything and if I need to give some stuff up to make this work I`m ready to do that. I hope I can figure this out before it comes to that and figure out a schedule to get everything done and make everyone including myself happy but we'll have to see.
Any suggestions for time management/ experiece from people who have been in this god awful place before?
btw I just got an e-mail from the student government saying that there are 6 open seats and 3 of them I could qualify for and get in no problem. I seriously considered this for about 20 seconds before I slapped myself and said HELL NO.
love always,
Ab