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Lately, I've been finding that I worry about useless shit. I don't worry about this new semester at school. I don't worry about not knowing what the hell I'm doing at my new job. And I sure as hell haven't started worrying about how I'm going to pay for this semester.
I should be worrying about all those things, but no, I've been worrying about relationships; friend and other. It's stupid really, because that should be the one thing I shouldn't worry about; the thing that's all trust and nothing else, and it turns out to be the only thing I worry about.
I know why. Little things that get said in passing that aren't supposed to mean anything. I make it in my head that they have to mean something. And then I do the 'what if...' crap. It's making me seem paranoid, and I'm really not liking it.
Why do I always have to try and ruin everything I have going for me?
I should be worrying about all those things, but no, I've been worrying about relationships; friend and other. It's stupid really, because that should be the one thing I shouldn't worry about; the thing that's all trust and nothing else, and it turns out to be the only thing I worry about.
I know why. Little things that get said in passing that aren't supposed to mean anything. I make it in my head that they have to mean something. And then I do the 'what if...' crap. It's making me seem paranoid, and I'm really not liking it.
Why do I always have to try and ruin everything I have going for me?