smiling through the pain...
Okay...I'll just do a short re-cap on the situation.
So, last week satan really worked on me. Especially tuesday night. And I accidentally took it out on my friend Lori. I ended up hanging up on her 2 or 3 times, and I hate hanging up on people and I usually don't! And I had a little attitude with her once at school, and then gave her a small attitude when she wouldn't pick me up for school(which I had no other mode of transportation to). But I realized my wrong doings, and I apologized to her for it. But now, for some reason or reasons that I'm still not 100% clear on, she is mad at me. Okay, so she says she isn't mad, but she needs her 'space'...what is that supposed to mean?! And everyone keeps telling me what she has told them, so all my mind does is assume, but then I disreguard the assumptions becausing assuming is never good...But I feel absolutely horrible for what I did to her. And now...I think I lost one of the best friends that I have ever had. What's worse...she ignores me, like I have never been her friend, not even that, like I am a person that she has heard bad things about and now wants to avoid. I don't know what to do...except give it to God. Which I just did, today, and I feel better, but the sting of pain is still there. I don't think she quite realizes how much 'sting' is in her 'bite' or how much strength is in her push.
And I know, I don't realize my own strength or how much 'sting' I can have either.
So, last week satan really worked on me. Especially tuesday night. And I accidentally took it out on my friend Lori. I ended up hanging up on her 2 or 3 times, and I hate hanging up on people and I usually don't! And I had a little attitude with her once at school, and then gave her a small attitude when she wouldn't pick me up for school(which I had no other mode of transportation to). But I realized my wrong doings, and I apologized to her for it. But now, for some reason or reasons that I'm still not 100% clear on, she is mad at me. Okay, so she says she isn't mad, but she needs her 'space'...what is that supposed to mean?! And everyone keeps telling me what she has told them, so all my mind does is assume, but then I disreguard the assumptions becausing assuming is never good...But I feel absolutely horrible for what I did to her. And now...I think I lost one of the best friends that I have ever had. What's worse...she ignores me, like I have never been her friend, not even that, like I am a person that she has heard bad things about and now wants to avoid. I don't know what to do...except give it to God. Which I just did, today, and I feel better, but the sting of pain is still there. I don't think she quite realizes how much 'sting' is in her 'bite' or how much strength is in her push.
And I know, I don't realize my own strength or how much 'sting' I can have either.